Hijrahku untuk Tahun 1430 Hijriah

Salam!

Salam Maal Hijrah untuk semua. sudah 1430 tahun sejak hijrah pertama Rasulullah s.a.w ke Madinah. hari ni 29 Disember. tahun ni, kalendar Hijri dan kalendar Gregorian hampir serentak. cuma ada perbezaan 1,2 hari sebab bulan islam hanya ada 30 hari (seingatku lah heh :P).

Sedang masyarakat sedang sibuk menyambut Hari Natal, dan sambutan Tahun Baru 2009, ditambah lagi dengan beberapa peristiwa besar dan mengejutkan; perkahwinan Mawi-Ekin dan kemangkatan Yang di-Pertuan Besar Negeri Sembilan Tuanku Ja'afar Tuanku Abdul Rahman, muslimin pastinya terleka untuk dengan persiapan kita untuk menyambut Tahun Baru 1430 Hijriah ini.

Buku lama dah ditutup. cuba kenang sejenak, apa kebaikan yang telah dicatit pada buku lama kita? dapat dikira? atau tak terkira? mudah-mudahan ia sedikit sebanyak memberi kita kesan seterusnya memasang niat untuk berhijrah ke kehidupan yang lebih baik. Lembaran baru dah dibuka, mudah-mudahan yang pertama tercatit adalah yang baik-baik belaka. insya'Allah :))

Apa ye hijrah ku kali ni?

Yang pertama, insya'Allah dari penganggur terhormat ke pengerah keringat :)) mudah-mudahan semuanya berjalan dengan lancar. ameen insya'Allah..~

Yang kedua, insya'Allah dari penerima kepada pemberi. ku berniat untuk menjadi lebih kepada pemberi bermula saat ku menerima hasil keringat pertamaku nanti. mudah-mudahan :)) you can keep my words.

Yang ketiga, insya'Allah dari kekasih orang kepada tunangan orang :)) semuanya belumpun dalam perancangan. masih omong-omongan kosong. tapi, dengan izin Allah..tiada yang mustahil. mudah-mudahan ibubapaku merestui :)

Yang keempat, insya'Allah dari pemarah kepada pemaaf. Surah Toha akan jd amalan harian insya'Allah..mudah-mudahan ku akan menjadi kurang emosi dan sensitif. seperti ia selalu akan mberi kesan pada orang2 sekeliling ku :(

dan akan bertambah lagi dari masa ke semasa..:))

mudah-mudahan hijrah kali ini membawa kepada diri kita yang lebih baik. dan sama-sama menjadikan lembaran lama sebagai iktibar dan teladan buat kita, insyaAllah.

wallahua'lam.

Dear..
If the days wont allow us to see each other, then the memories will..
and I'll think of you, till my heart contented..:))

A note to myself.

and this is the 4th time i changed my blog template. :)) did they tell u anythng? hehe and i wish, this is the final one.

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i've decided to make my blog less personal, and more to global aspects.

:))

wallahua'alam.

Gripping and thankful.

Previously, i'd informed that i'll be having a phone interview sort of with the manager that want me in to his department right?..however, it turned to an interview. indeed!!

it's informal, a chit-chat sorta. he wanted to know me more before signing the offer letter to be given to me, perhaps. i dun asked much.

I received a call yesterday while i was still at Kelantan n we're bout goin back to KL. The call was from a person incharge in recruiting department of IBU, Intenational Business Unit. IBU is an operating unit under PET. The person whom has been contacting me informing me that the GM of IBU wanted to meet me tomorrow, which is today. n i was shivering, cant basically think rational what is the best time for me to meet him considering that i'm still on my way back to KL. n i say "cool!" hah here i go again, whatta stupid opt i had made. i cud have tell her that i'm currently at Kelantan n will be able to meet up on Wednesday, cudnt i?

Therefore, today with an inadequte sleep and rest, (after a long journey from Kelantan and arrived KL approximately on 11pm) slothing to Level 45, Tower 1, KLCC. Considering that one shall be arriving at the interview place at least 30 minutes before the interview, and so i am late. I arrived there approximtely on 10am. sharp. My dad has been reminding me to be there as early as possible, but i'd contravened the reminder. by chance, yes by chance indeed! huhu..geramnye! bile pikir balik. back to the day i went to meet The GM of IBU. and so i arrived there, there was a man known as En Yus accidentally crossing by the entry door greeting me by saying "O you must be Raja Aini..we were talking bout you just now. how are you?" we shook hands and exchanging smile. and immediately my hands and legs got icy. my o my. what kind of situation will i be facing now...? oh~

In the GM room, waiting there is the GM itself and a fine lady. hence, there were 3 person interviewing me. and u know? i was playing the so-typical of me along the interview session! clumsy, impolite, bad-hearing skill (keep asking.."come again, sir?" adoiyai~), lack of business ethics (yet i scored A tau for that BE subject back in UM! buang je dlm tong sampah!) ya Allah~ if i were to remember back my tongue, hands, gestures on that day..i cud have sworn, i killed myself for acting that way. grrr!

The GM was asking me bout my field of interest, and i told them, it is an accounting of course. as you can refer to my degree, i've been awarded a BAcc (hons) UM. and i told them again i've registered myself to ACCA to pursue myself to a professional level. then they get shocked somehow listening to my statement. and i was gripping, "did i say something wrong?" the GM smiled and told me that "here in IBU, we dun count beans. we are a business unit. and our operation is 100% corporate planning and business affairs. do you find it okay, to be here? ur skills group will be wasted" there goes the first soalan cepumas. adoiyai~ and i answered,

" being a CA has been my dream and i was about to make it real. however, i took ACCA as a part-time, and part of my long-life learning thus, i'll adjust myself accordingly. i mean, according to my job. besides, once i registered to ACCA, i can always took the tuition class at anytime and anywhere as long as when the exam comes, u sit. yada yada.."

and they seem contemplating. pondering, whether i'm the right candidate to join them. referring to my CV, the GM told me that apart from my CGPA, they are impressed knowing that i was active in Silat Cekak, Kompang, Kayaking and 4 languages that i owned; with an additional of Arabic and French. the GM told me that, to be part of IBU, first, u must be funny (haha..), know how to dance poco-poco (haha lagi..seriously they are an easy-going ppl sbnrnye. tp aku je yg terlebih cuak), well-rounded, multi-tasking and most imprtantly own a leadership skill. however due to my accounting field of interest, he was contemplating to put me there.

after the not-so-short conversation with them, the GM decided to set me an appointment with Pn Rasyidah, the GM of Finance Group Division. however due to packed-schedule that Pn Rasyidah had today..he promised me to arrange it later. soon.

ho-humm..and yet my job placement isn't confirmed. got another meet-up. and i swear, i want to put an end to this ambiguity as soon as i meet Pn Rasyidah later.

till then,

wallahua'lam.

..and my journey to CA has just begun.

My life has just went through a huge paradigm shift and things are never going be the same, humm. from a full-time painstaking student of BAcc UM, to a full-time housekeeper, being part of the contributors to an unemployment rate (haha so proud of it) and now, alhamdulillah i'm officially a part-time ACCA student. alhamdulillah i'm finally on track to CA. and i'll hardly saving my breath till i get the CA title. at least 3 years from now. it has never been easy ppl. however, that's the price that u've to pay for the pleasure u'll earned at the end of the day. the backbreaking's worth it.

u see..when ppl say life is like a rolling wheel. sometime u r at the top and the next time u r at the bottom. they are true. ergo, no matter how horrible situation are for you, always try hard to look at the bright side of it.

as in me, i've been at the lowest level of my life for the last 6 months. i was lamenting myself for not earning for living. every day n night. i cried a river everytime i realized how incapable i am, helpless in making an effort to secure a verdict for my career trek.

nevertheless, time heals all wounds. and now, i'm stronger than i ever be. no more ambiguity in navigating my life to where i want it to be. it's certain. thanks to you my friends and family for being supportive all this while. no more weep and wail.

i've been receiving calls from HR Pet regarding of my job placement. alhamdulillah. it's a good sign. i'll be expecting a call from the manager who wanted me in to his/her department. phone interview sort of. i've been asked about location preferability from the HR officer whom has been contacting me. and i told her it's not a problem, indeed. haha. as if i could, then i would say i want it to be near to my home :)) haha. hence, expecting a call from the manager itself has been intriguing me day and night..and now, asked a location preferability freezes my hands and legs. my o my. what if, i've been placed to somewhere across the state? across the sea? huhuhuh~

any how, i'm more than contented to know the progress of my job placement so far.

well guys, i'll be updating soon. tomorrow i'll be heading to my granny's hometown.

:))

wallahua'lam.

Cerita satu malam.

Malam 1

malam yang gelap. sunyi. pukul 11pm. dok sorang2 nih terasa cam cepat mengantuk, tapi mata sperti menolak untuk lelap. tv tutup. lampu tutup. aktifkan sistem sekuriti rumah. 10 minit terlena, alarm sekuriti rumah berbunyi. terkejut. mata terus membulat. hah? kenapa? lama betul berbunyi. perasaan da bercampur baur tatau nak buat ape. selimut digenggam rapat. berpeluh. mata dpejam. mimpi ke? terus telefon ayah yang masih lagi dlm perjalanan ke Kelantan. da lepas Gua Musang. ayah kata ADT security baru lepas call ayah tadi. ada open zone, di Zone 3. Zone 3? kat mane? yg selalu bg masalah sensor, Zone 4, tingkap bilik study. tp Zone 3 kat mane? ayah kata pintu dapur. hah? airmata terus mengalir. takut. nak buat ape ni...? ayah kata jgn kaget..selawat byk2 mudah-mudahan tade ape2. mungkin Garfield, kucing. aku takut. ya Allah..terasa lemah sungguh hati ni. ayah telefon polis, suruh polis dtg jenguk. sejurus selepas tu, polis datang. dan aku memberanikan diri turun ke bawah. buka pintu. buka pagar. ada kereta polis, 2 orang, kereta bersiren, berlampu suluh. polis minta masuk nak check kat dapur. tade ape2. cuma pintu gril terbuka. polis tanye, gril tu mmg terbuka ke? aku kata aku tak check sebelum pasang alarm td. fikir ayah da kuncikan sebelum bertolak balik kelantan petang tu. polis kata tade apa2. sebelum tu ada soal jawab. tanya nama, umur, kenapa duk umah sorg2. pening. pening nak jawab. tapi nasib baik polis-polis tu kacak. teruja sikit.(:P)

selesai, aku kembali tidur. cuba untuk melelapkan mata. pukul 1 pagi cik ngah yg duduk d Putrajaya call, ckp ada depan rumah. ayah call untuk teman aku tidur dirumah. bersyukur. gembira. ada teman. tp serba-salah juga. macam menyusahkan. tp cik ngah kata takpe. keselamatan harus diutamakan.

lena.

pagi esoknya yang cerah. secerah perasaan ini. dan cik ngah pulang pukul 10 pagi. sambil berpesan, kalau ada apa2, call.

terkenang2 abang polis kacak yang segak. :P incek Fairus kate kacaklah, sbb mereka tu polis pancaragam sbnrnye. heh. ade ke. cemburu aku kata abg polis tu lebih kacak dr nya. :P

terima kasih abg polis kacak.

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Malam 2

ayah call petang nya kata ta dapat tiket flight balik isnin malam. bas pun takde. hanya ada flight 6.30 pagi esoknya. hati bersedih. macam mane ni? ayah kata ajak la kawan teman. dan mira bersetuju untuk teman. gembira. sangat. ada teman, yey!

terima kasih mira cantik.

nnt-nnt, boleh bermalam drumah ku lagi ye. :))

p/s Takziah pd sahabatku Siti Nurfareha M Nor atas pemergian ibunya. melawatnya d Klang smlm, menyentuh hati. eha, kamu mmg kuat. kalau rindukan ibu kamu, cepat2 sedekah kan Yasin untuknya ye. moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat, dan ditempatkan bersama2 org yg beriman. kalau kamu ada apa2, jgn segan2 bgtahu aku ye..jgn segan2. kalau kamu segan, siap lah kamu. jaga diri. semuanya ada hikmah. percayalah. ha lagi satu..ingat2 wasiat terakhir ibumu tuh :))

The giving up for the sake of something else.

In commemoration of eid adha celebration, which we always connecting it with sacrifices, suddenly i feel like to write something here. about sacrifices, indeed. at d moment, i was left alone in this lonely home. home w/out family? it's lonely, isnt it? o perhaps terrifying? o Lord..pls..devoid me from any unreal thinking..:'( my family was going back to Kelantan after the Qurban rite (5 cows had been turned down. bykkan?) with Alam Damai neighbourhood and after performing asar prayer just now. n i'm not following. u must be wondering y m i chosing to b left alone at home instead of i can joyously join the trip to Kelantan? heck if i were to chose the 2nd option..i'll undisputedly go for it. in fact, i missed my granma n tokcik a looot~ been thinking about their health condition lately. esp my tokcik. :'(

this is what i referring to what had i given up for the sake of something else. i have to stay, because i got a few of unsettled issues which have to be cleared up before this coming Thursday. since my mom n my other siblings will stay at Kelantan till sunday (i think), hence i'll b joining them by later of friday. i wish i cud make it on thursday jgak. huhu. well it depends on how 'good' cooperation i received from Seksyen Peperiksaan UM regarding of my English Transcript request. i pray heartfully that everything will go smoothly. amiiin...~

back to my famili's trip to Kelantan..actually, my dad will coming back to Kuala Lumpur tomorrow's eve. cuti ayah trpaksa disimpan utk holiday ke Kedah christmas nnt :)) so, i'll b having my dad's company by tomorrow night. insyaAllah. :finger-crossing:

speaking of sacrifices, actually ther's a lot that i can share here about my sacrifices to my family and vice versa and et cetera. time is clocked 19.41 now, so hve to take my bath and performing maghrib prayer pulak.

hmmm..ape nak makan malam ni ye?

rendang ayam (i cooked for today raya's breakfast) ada sikit lagi..

tp mcm nk makan maggi..

haha :D i definitely sound like a home-alone girl kn?

selamat hari raya eid adha semua.

wallahua'alam.

A break out.

banyak.banyak sebenarnye nak cerita dkat sini.
tp semacam malas sunggoh nak menaip.tak seperti selalu.teruja sunggoh menaip blog.

1. tentang percutian di PD bersama keluarga baru-baru ni :))
2. tentang A1 GP di Sepang :))
3. tentang kedatangan mira ke rumah dan aktiviti bermain badminton :))
4. tentang movie outing ; Madagasacar 2 :))
5. terutama sekali tentang 'panggilan' itu..dan perancanganku untuk menyambung pembelajaran ke aras yang professional :))

seminggu ta dapat online sbb talian dipotong. fhm2 lah perangai ayah ku :)) tapi yang paling utama, perasaan ni lebih tenang..dgn kehadiran ahli keluarga yg lain dirumah.
rumah da ta sunyi lagi.
aku da ta keseorangan lagi.
banyak sudah senyuman dan tawa dari ku.
hidup ini sememangnya tidak djadikan untuk adil. sbb tu kita ada antara satu sama lain. keluarga, teman-teman dan orang asing. hidup ini bukan berkisar antara kita berdua, bertiga, berlima atau berenam. lebih. kita saling bergantungan dan melengkapi. kita ta sedar kadang-kadang kita perlu orang asing untuk menyedarkan kita. bukan dari orang yang dekat dgn kita. belajar dari keadaan. yang teruk bila kita tak belajar dari keadaan yang ditetapkan. dan terus membuat kesilapan yang sama dan menyalahkan keadaan yg berlaku. dan paling teruk menyalahkan Tuhan yang menetapkan keadaan itu berlaku keatas kita. semua yang berlaku ada asbab nya. dan bergantung pada kita bagaimana nk mencari asbab nya. paling penting, bersangka baiklah pd Tuhan yang menciptakan kamu. dan dengan itu kamu akan peroleh ketenangan hati yang diluar jangkaan akal mu :))
wallahua'lam.

Hanya satu panggilan...

...dan ia berjaya mengubah hari saya!!

:))

JANGAN BERSEDIH,KHABAR GEMBIRA MENANTI ORANG2 YANG SABAR

"Dan Kami pasti akan menguji kamu dgn sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah2an. Dan sampaikanlah kabar gembira kpd org2 yg sabar,iaitu org2 yg apabila ditimpa musibah,mereka berkata

"sesungguhnya kami milik Allah dan kepadaNyalah kami kembali(Innalillahi waiina ilaihi rajiun)"

Mereka itulah yg memperoleh ampunan dan rahmat dari Tuhannya,dan mereka itulah org2 yg mendapat petunjuk."(2:155-157)

nantikan khabar selanjutnya...:D

wallahua'lam.

Afiq da besar! :)

okey...
arini bape haribulan eh? 22 Nov 2008
my O my!
sgt excited!
afiq da SUNAT! yeay! :D
as in berkhatan ye..bukan puasa sunat ke, solat sunat ke..

kesimpulannya;

-afiq da bleh jadi imam, he had wished to be fer so long..
-afiq da ta bleh pakai baju,seluar di luar bilik..harus didlm bilik..ye!
-afiq da ta bleh sesuka pewut sergah bilik kakak bile2 dah..knocking is a must!
-afiq da ta bleh tanye soalan2 cepumas dkat kakak dah..macam "kak,cemane perempuan boleh mengandung?" "kakak bile nak mengandung?" umph. mmg mencabar. afiq da kena tanya soalan2 cemtu kat org yg lebih arif..i.e ustaz yg afiq salu jumpe kat surau tuh..

hehe :))

afiq da besar! i mean grew up k..bukan spt2 yg brmain dikepala kalian..eit!jgn nak nafi k...haha :D

It's future to unforeseen albeit you are a fortune-teller.

i was wanting to write something good here. i mean, a good news. yet, nothing intrigues me. hmmm..

yesterday, mira called me to make a visit and it was actually an attempt to copy Gossip Girls Season 1 and 2 from me. hehe :) i wasnt mind, though. to receive a visit from my closest friend was a sheer contentment. i'm thrilled :))

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Mira "ko buat ape peos...?"
Me "cam yang ko lihat..dok umah..(smiled)"
Mira "sedihnye la aku tgk ko..ko tak kuar ke?"
Me "kdg2 kuar jugak..beli brg2 umah..(smiled again)"
Mira "eh kuar lah..jalan2..mane tak kurus aku tgk ko"
Mira lagi "nape jahat sgt Pet ni tak panggil2 ko keje..takpe2..kat sini ade taman tak bleh jogging ke.."
Me "ade..straight dr jln dpan umah aku ni..mmg ramai salu jogging situ..cam mini taman tasik"
Mira "ha nnt bile2 aku dtg lagi..kite jogging2 ke..gossip2 lagi.."
Me *smiled*

***

i somehow touched on Mira's concern bout me. i was waiting fer so long for someone to understand my feelings and situation here. even though it happends that they understand me..trust me, it's better to be the onlooker rather than to be in my shoes guys. seriously.

as i hypnotized on how fleeting days, weeks and months get along together..i just happened to know that i've spent half of my 2008 being a housekeeper. hah! whatta long period, you see. and i remain as a girl with no quest. umph. my heart cracked everytime i had a glance at my degree. oh u can never imagined. i became flimsy. if ever i have no incek Fairus in my life now, i cud have imagined how miserable i am day after another. Praise to Allah swt i have him to brighten up my day. to make me feel better. to always make me laugh with his silly jokes. :))

and now, i become stronger than ever and managed to be less dramatic and emotional..:)) (u'll buy, wont ya?) one thing that definitely makes me feel gratified is when my mom acknowledged me after for so long being a housekeeper, i become so efficient in handling houseworks, my cooks and bakes turn out to be more tempting and finally when my dad admit that my vocabulary (english) had perked up. well that's basically what will go off when u had finished quite a number of RD and books to kill ur free time. i dun have any other option, do i? :)

hah i was planning to write a short post bout mira's attend and now it becames a short essay. hehe.

i hope you guys are doing phenomenal in ur career now. i am thrilled to know many of my friends being so fortunate in developing their life at the moment :))

will see ya when i see ya guys.

wallahua'lam.

Happy 9th Anniversary Afiq!

Afiq! muahmuah! hehehe..:))

Today..afiq goes 9. and i was mesmerized on how fast time flies. it happends in a blink. afiq grews and it reminds me on how older i am to him and wrinkles and dark circles around my eyes. omg.

Other than that, i'm happy fer him! i wish he gonna have a blast years ahead..and u know afiq, ther's so much in front of u waiting for u to grab! u r so much younger and i hope u gonna learn much in ur early childhood years dear! i wish u gonna listen to mom and dad more and be more abiding. ok? i know u're in a learning stage and ppl say it's right for kids to grumble and struggle a lil bit but sometimes they got to learn a lesson that kids have to respect olders. right?

i love u afiq, u'll always be the dearest lil brother in my heart.

i wish u gonna love my mee sup in a near future. haha. u'll always freaked out with mee. see kakak and famili members lain tak mati pon makan mee tau! :P

k dear.
u'll be expecting a cake once u got back from school today. coz i'll be baking a special cake for u! i hope i cud buy you some good birthday gifts. but nevermind, u can always claim it from me once i received my first pay k! u got my words:))

wallahua'lam.

So much in love.

i once (n in fact, more than once hehe) dreaming of me tying the knot with a prince charming. darn, what a reminiscence of my early childhood life haha :D ladies always desire for an unconditional love. a man whom had his own romantic way of indulging the lady he loved, whom strong and protective, whom willing to do anything beyond possibilities to please the lady. and so am i :))

in any love relationship, ther's no such smooth and even path to happiness. we always got into bumped roads and demanding our faithfulness and devotion. right? it's happened to me too. all the time. everytime we had a dispute, it's always me whom caused the issue. i always feel unsatisfied, easily get hurt by any issues. and i would say anything to hurt his feeling. despite so many things he had done..what is wrong with me? i was so mean, wasnt i? :( and then, i'll feel so regret. like an innocent lil girl crying, asking for her mother forgiveness for taken RM1 from mom's wallet without permission to buy a paper doll. remorseful. how cud i hurt him? the man who loved me with all of his heart, accepting me the way i am? huh..how silly-insane girlfriend i am to him.:(

i am so fortunate, and even cant praise enof to Allah s.w.t..after countless bumped roads that got into me and him, he still stick to me being my other half, spoiling me and eager to be my future husband.

he once said, "it doesnt matter how many times you try to hurt my feelings, coz i know you never mean it. i'll always love you to pieces, no matter what. please forgive me for ignoring your feelings. i wish i cud have an eyes on you 24-7. to make sure, u r alright. to hug you, whenever u feel bad. how i rili wish...."

...i'm weeping everytime i received that kind of text from him X'( he always apologized though he knew by himself, it was me whose arousing the issue.

i had found my Prince Charming.

He is.

my Mr Fairus.

wallahua'lam.

Menjawab Soalan lagi.

Starting time : 1300

current songs: tgh dgr azan zuhur nih.. hiks.

Name : ainifairuS

Sisters : 3 (i'm the eldest btw)

Brothers : 2

Shoe size : 5 (mostly fit)

Height : err..153cm..ye..saya mmg cuhmel. so what?

Weight: 43 kg (updated last wednesday. haihh~ blame to my hiked metabolisme level. saya makan byk.)

Where do you live: Alam Damai.

Have you ever been on a plane: yes. current flight taken on last monday.

Swam in the ocean: harus pakai life jacket.

Fallen asleep at school: penah la. but very rare to catch me sleeping during class. kaver baik punya.

Fell off your chair: penah juga. sangat. memalukan. the whole class got eyes on me. sampai kain pon terselak. sheeet!

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: i once waiting fer him to call but most off the time, i fell asleep. ssh ape? :P

Saved e-mails: yes. see my Yahoo inbox, i got 9 folders for diff types of saved emails.

What is your room like: Greenie. ade katil. ade attached almari. ade karpet. ade bilik air. ade teddy juga. level of cleanliness? see it by yourself :P

What’s right beside you: me handphone.

What is the last thing you ate: i had roti canai for my breakfast. yumm~ :P

Ever had...Chicken pox?: yes.

Sore throat: very rare.

Broken nose: never had. alhamdulillah.

Do you believe in love at first sight: erk? :))

Like picnics: i'd love to!

Who was/were...The last person you danced with: a grup of ppl. menari poco-poco.

Last made you smile: him :) always.

You last yelled at: i yelled to Garfield. i fed him yet he thanks me by putting some shit on my mom's frontyard. u're welkam!

Today did you...Talk to someone you like: suboh td.

Kissed anyone: yes. lil kiddos. iman, aqilah, asyraf..they r all below 5 years old. :))

Get sick: sakit hati. sakit perut. sakit kepala. sume ada.

Talk to an ex: i only talk to him :)

Miss someone: always.

Who do you really hate: sarky-fat-ass ppl.

Do you like your hand-writing: perlu ke?

Are your toe nails painted: inai penah. sekarang kena tunggu kawin baru pakai :))

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: my parents' perhaps??

Are you a friendly person: depends. i can be no more wise to the ppl as stated above!

Do you have any pets: Garfield? we dun pet him. but we feed him.

Do you sleep with the TV on: very rare. i'm not a tv-watcher lately. only selected shows.

What are you doing right now: jawab soalan-soalan ni cepat2. mau solat pulak. nak trun masak pulak.

Can you handle the truth: i'll handle them soundly. for a bitter truth? i'll first cry a river.

Are you closer to your mother or father: i'm closer to my siblings but i heart both'em. 

Do you eat healthy: u can say.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: erk?

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: him :) always.

Are you loud or quiet most of the time: quiet most of the time.

Are you confident: pretending to be. haha :D

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1) being a 13 years old unwised lil girl.
2) too-far to called as a matured person. life has so much to enjoy!
3) get caught for illegal outing to Country Height. yeppa! haha.
4) anti kakak-kakak sama bdak2 putera yg acting like bagus saje!
5) the first time i had a few closed friens, n we declared us as a 10 members n had our finger-crossed to always stick as gudfrens till forever :))

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) menggembirakan keluarga.
2) pergi haji balik hari. bak kate mak. haha! :D
3) tolong kanak-kanak yang sakit dan miskin.
4) cuti-cuti satu dunia.
5) sape mau pinjam? mau jd ah long lah~ :D

break kejap. timed 1349.
continued on 1435.

5 of my bad habits
1) soft-hearted. easily get hurt. even to small-tiny lil issues.
2) rebellious i am. pig-headed.
3) procrastinate.
4) forgetful. byk makan kepala ikan.
5) mood-swinging.

3 places I've lived/living
1) Segambut Dalam
2) Ampang
3) Alam Damai.

5 persons dat i wanna tag:
1) sume yg ade dlm Bloggers list saya ----->
2) anyone.
3) cud be you.
4) if you're attracted to answer this few fun Qs.
5) if you've so much plenty of time to kill.

tahniah amerika ^_^ v!

i knew it.

ppl had Voted For Change..n lets pray heartfully it's for real good.

wallahua'lam.

Bila yang pergi takkan kembali.

Pergi Tak Kembali
Artist: Rabbani
Song Category: Nasyid

Setiap insan pasti merasa
Saat perpisahan terakhir
Dunia yang fana akan ditinggalkan
Hanya amalan yang dibawa

Terdengar sayup surah dibaca
Sayunya alunan suara
Cemas di dada...lemah tak bermaya
Terbuka hijab di depan mata

Selamat tinggal pada semua
Berpisahlah kita selamanya
Kita tak sama nasib di sana
Baikkah atau sebaliknya

Amalan dan takwa jadi bekalan
Sejahtera bahagia pulang...ke sana

Sekujur badan berselimut putih
Rebah bersemadi sendiri
Mengharap kasih anak dan isteri
Apa mungkin pahala dikirim

Terbaring sempit seluas pusara
Soal-bicara terus bermula
Sesal dan insaf tak berguna lagi
Hancurlah jasad dimamah bumi

Berpisah sudah segalanya
Yang tinggal hanyalah kenangan
Diiring doa dan air mata
Yang pergi takkan kembali lagi

sayup kedengaran lagu ni bermain di kepala saat menerima berita pemergian Cik Mah ahad yang lepas,usai ku menyempurnakan solat isya'. airmata ni laju mengalir. tak menyangka. Cik Mah merupakan adik bongsu kpd nenek sbelah mak. umurnya awal 50an tak silap. tua sedikit dari mak. masih muda, masih manis senyumannya. ada 3 anak. yang sulong dah berkahwin, dan punya anak 2 orang. cucu sulongnya masih berumur 6tahun. kami sgt rapat. soo intimate till i cudnt imagine future raya celebration without her.

ye. dia menghidap sakit dalam perut sejak sebulan puasa yang lepas. makan tak lalu, asyik muntah. sambutan aidilfitri yang lepas ibarat ta punya apa-apa makna bg cik mah. dia terbaring lesu. kurus. tak punya apa-apa hidangan istimewa raya. tak ada. usai solat raya, ku dan mak terus pegi melawat cik mah dirumah. gelap. tingkap tak terbuka. kelam. hati ni da mula rasa sebak. sbb bukan ini yang selalunya berlaku tatkala menyambut 1 syawal bersamanya. mesti ada tapai, ada ketupat daun palas dan hidangan nasi istimewa. pasti akan kelihatan kelibat dia dirumah tok(nenekku) tersenyum manis, berbaju baru datang mengusik kami. tapi kali ni, takde. syawal kali ni sepi. tambahan pula rumah tok da tak berhuni mulanya ramadhan lagi. kami da tak brmalam drumah disana, sejak tok dan tokcik berpindah kerumah mak long. ku da sepatutnya menjangka yang malaikat izrail sedang melihatnya dari jauh tinggal menanti saat untuk mencabut ruhnya. T_T benarlah, 40hari sebelum arwah 'pergi' pelbagai tanda2 yang 'bukan biasa' terdapat pd dirinya.

akhirnya kami sekeluarga menaiki kapal terbang pulang ke kampung. flight pukul 0745 pagi. bangun 4 pagi. gerak ke kl sentral pukul 5 pagi. tiba di kampung pukul 10 lebih. orang kampung da memenuhi sepelusuk rumah cik mah dan tok. ramai. ku hampir tak mendongak melihat siapa yang ada disana. adrenalin da 'berlari-lari'. jantung berdegup pantas tatkala mahu melihat jenazah cik mah. setiba di biliknya, terlihat sekujur tubuh berselimut putih. berdebar-debar. tok menyelak sikit selimut untuk kami menatap wajah cik mah. ya Allahhuakbar. airmata ni bagai tak tertahan. laju mengalir. tersedu-sedu menahan sebak. "kak..yah..jangan menangis..sedekahkan yassin untuk arwah cik mah.." kata tok. kami terduduk. ku mengambil surat Yassin untuk dibaca. tersedu-sedu. usai bacaan yassin, ku da kembali tenang. masih menatap tubuh cik mah diatas katil. memujuk hati untuk menerima pemergian cik mah.

da takde lagi teman membungkus tapai dan ketupat..da takde lagi teman bersembang tika memasak didapur tok..da takde lagi teman membuat rendang daging..(cik mah la yg pertama memuji rendang daging masakan ku yg pertama kali)..kan ku rindu saat dia mengadu tentang leteran tok keatas nya..kan ku rindu segala-gala tentang nya...T_T

suatu pengalaman. kali pertama ku berpeluang mengikuti rukun-rukun menguruskan jenazah. dari memandikan, mengkafankan, sembahyang jenazah, mengiring jenazah ke tanah perkuburan, meletak jenazah didalam liang lahad, hingga mengkambus tanah. tatkala menatap wajah cik mah buat kali terakhir sebelum mengkafankannya, ku kucup pipinya. terasa sejuk. pipi cik mah lembut. perasaan sayang ni brtambah kuat.

usai segala urusan kami berangkat pulang ke kuala lumpur 9.30 mlm.

"usai sudah urusan cik mah didunia. ku sayang cik mah. ku cemburu dan gembira mengetahui bahawa Allah swt lebih menyayangi mu".

Ya Allah..tempatkanlah cik mah bersama-sama orang-orang yang beriman..orang-orang yang memperoleh rahmatMu ya Allah..

Al-fatihah...

For things you have missed.

I was enjoying my eve sipping a cup of hot tea with Tiger Biskuat while watching Droopy Cartoons on TV3. Till i realize how had i missed the way this ridiculous, hillarious-evil cartoons made my stomach burst with laugh ages ago. So i stick in front of the television untill the show ends. They never fail to crack me up! Man i love droopy! :D u gotta watch this..




Actually i was watching another episode of Droopy yet i cudnt find that particular episode in Youtube. Just my 2cents, perhaps we cud try to sneak a while in our routine to enjoy watching cartoons..it helps refresh our mind..then u r good to go,man!

"ya moved, didnt cha?"

"fun, isnt it?"

"i surprise him like this all through the pictures"

hahaha...:D

Singgang Ikan Kembung

ni adalah antara jenis masakan kegemaran keluarga:)) esp mak dgn ayah. They are kelantanese ergo, the dish speaks well..:)) it's easy yet fantalicious!!

ni lagi satu gambar hasil 'culikan dari internet..:P lebih kurg camni la rupenye..tp yg aku punye cam lebih menarik sket dr yg ini sbnrnye..hiks :P

Bahan-bahan nye :

3 ekor ikan kembung saiz sederhana
2 inci lengkuas
1 inci halia
1 inci kunyit
1 ketul bawang putih
5 biji cili padi
2 biji cili hijau
4 keping asam keping
Garam secukup rasa.

Ini caranye :

1. Mula-mula potong ikan kembung kepada 3 bahagian. Masukkan kedalam periuk.
2. Hiris kasar lengkuas (nak ketuk pon boleh).
3. Hiris halia dan kunyit.
4. Ketuk bawak putih. Kemudian taburkan lengkuas, halia, kunyit, bawang putih td kedalam periuk berisi ikan kembung td.
5. Hiris kasar cili padi dan potong dua cili hijau. Masukkan kedalam periuk td.
6. Masukkan asam keping dan garam secukup rasa.
7. Isi air masak setakat ikan direndam. Letak atas dapur dan masak dalam 5-10 minit.
8. Finito! :P

Hee..ikan kembung tuh bleh dihiris ikut kehendak..ada yang potong 2, tapi kami perut kecil2 jdnye potong banyak sikit. :)) Kandungan cili padi dan cili hijau tu pon ikut kehendak rasa sendiri..sape yg suke pedas,letak lg banyak..dan vice versa. Makan ikan singgang ni..sedap dgn sambal cili sama sayur bendi yang dicelur. man O man sedap...~ XP selamat mencuba!

Friends' Tags.

:)) rase cam liable plak bile kawan da tag kite untuk jawab few fun Qs. It only tooks few minutes, though. :P

Haz's Tag.

What were the 5 things on your to do list today?
- Sweeping floor
- Wash clothes (by washing machine of coz!)
- Goreng cucur pisang (leftovers)
- Cooking (affirmative!)
- Continue reading The Forgotten War and NST (a compulsary daily reading materials i can say!:P)

What are 5 snacks that you enjoy?
* Sepotong kek cokelat
* Kerepek pisang yang melekat digigi! :D
* Keropok ikan yg bese tuh~
* Epal hijau a day! (can b considered huh? haha..ku jarang makan snack.inilah hasilnye. irrelated answer! :P)
* -none-

What are 5 jobs you’ve had?
* Travel agent assistant
* Acc. Trainee
* Data-entry clerk
* A housekeeper
* Acc. Executive (very soon :) i'm no feigned happy)

5 people you wanna tag back?
♥ Anyone
♥ Eha
♥ Kema
♥ Tuan Syazwani
♥ Najwa

Kema's Tag

1. How old are you?
23

2. Are you single?
Bujang. bulum kahwin. yet soon :P

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
Soon, but not this year. :P 

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
With Allah's blessing. :pray heartfully:

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Dr Faez Khalid (can ah? :D)

6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
Traditional. It has it own remarkable way.

7. Your ideal motive?
motif? kalau da pilih traditional, kena ade motif ke? can i pick color? Greenish yellow.

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
Same as kema, i want Paris! yeay! :D yet i think we'll go to Sabah or Sarawak first.

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
around 500?? den pon tatau..jemput-jemput, sorg pon ta dtg, malu 7 keturunan..hiks :P

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
Simple with all my loved ones around. Enof.

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
A traditional islamic solemnization i ges? mau kontrak-kontrak, kena ari lain..haha:P

12. How many layers of cake do you want?
perlu ke? pulut kuning je bleh?

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
My homesweethome.

14. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
I want it on the evening, lpas maghrib. He want it on the morning. We'll see who win later. egege :P

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
Indoors.  tp mesti kena outdoors hmm~ 

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
tak perlu lah..

17. Name the song/tune you’d like to play at your wedding
nnt pikir kendian..

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
soalan ni ada kaitan dgn yg no. 14 kee..? hmmm. 

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
I want a solemn ceremony. as i said earlier kan....?

20. Describe your ideal husband.
He's Muhammed Fairus Ahmad Aripin.

21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
Pakai tangan je bleh? susah-susah. 

22. Champagne or red wine?
Teh tarik?

23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
ntah-ntah months after the wedding kot...

24. Money or household items?
Either or..asal ikhlas. kalau da bg, mintak balik..ape kes?

25. Who will pay for the bills?
Sendirian Berhad.

28. Are you ready for married life?

u ges?

29. Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
BIG yes. duhhh!

30. Will you always be true to your husband?
Till my body and soul apart. 

31. How many kids would you like to have?
4 kids. He want 6. The more,the merrier he once said.  

32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
Rumah mak yang kat Taman Cempaka. till we got the new one.

33. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding or diamond wedding?
apekah? mau cincin emas sudah..

34. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
Malay cuisine definitely. Takkan nk bg steak kat macik2 tu makan? sumpah dierang mintak nasi putih sama kicap nk makan dgn steak tuh.

35. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
What makes it different btw?

36. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
My friends. esp in my Bloggers list. :P

Kek Coklat Kukus

Dah lame rasenye tak kongsi resipi dekat blog ni..:) sebab takde kamera nak amik gambar2 menarik..kamera ada satu je yg function, tu pon skrg at gee's possession.

gamba ni hasil 'culikan' dari internet..aku pilih gamba ni sbb kek yang aku buat lebih kurang camni la rupenye ",

Bahan-bahan:

1 1/2 cawan tepung naik sendiri.
1 cawan gula kastor.
3/4 cawan mentega.
1/2 cawan susu penuh krim.
1/2 cawan serbuk koko.
1 sudu teh esen vanilla.
2 biji telur.

Ini cara-caranya:

1. Didihkan air kukusan.
2. Masukkan mentega dan gula didalam cooking pan diatas api sederhana. Kacau sehingga cair. Sejukkan.
3. Ayak tepung dan serbuk koko.
4. Pukul telur secara perlahan didalam mangkuk yang lebih kecil. Jangan sampai berbuih.
5. Masukkan telur dan esen vanilla didalam adunan mentega tadi. Tukar adunan ke dalam baking bowl. Kacau hingga betul-betul sebati. Gradually, masukkan tepung yang diayak tadi.
6. Adunan mestilah tidak terlalu cair. Masukkan adunan tadi ke dalam ape-ape bentuk mangkuk yang sesuai dengan tempat kukusan. Tutup mangkuk dengan aluminium foil. Kukus selama 45minit sehingga 1jam. Boleh periksa dengan cucuk garfu dan pastikan takde adunan yang melekat (bg kek yang sudah masak).

InsyaAllah akan menjadi..", kalau tak jadi, jangan putus asa..teruskan mencuba sbb mungkin tepung, telur gred yang berbeza mungkin memerlukan sukatan yang berbeza. Kek coklat yang dikukus tak perlukan coklat topping sangat, sbb struktur keknya da lembap..dgn coklat topping nanti terlalu manis, tak elok pula untuk kesihatan.hehe :)) selamat mencuba!

wallahua'lam.

Emotionally driven

yes, i am.

murahnya airmata ini,
rapuhnya hati ini,
mudahnya terluka..

Ya Allah ya Tuhan kami, kurniakan kami rahmat dari sisiMu, dan berilah petunjuk kepada kami dalam urusan kami dengan segala petunjuk,
Mudahkanlah urusan kami ya Allah, permudahkanlah jangan disulitkan kerana Engkaulah yang maha memudahkan, segala yang susah adalah mudah bagi-Mu,
ya Allah, sempurnakanlah dengan segala kebaikan, dengan rahmatMu, ya Allah wahai yang paling mengasihani daripada segala yang mengasihani..

T_T
wallahua'lam.

Helping those who helped themselves.

What do we live for if not to make life less difficult for each other?

Once you read, any reading materials of course, you wont imagined on how much you'll be getting the inputs. right? That's what i've been doing all this time, since i've a plenty of time to kill (you know what i mean, dun ya?). I'd finished few books to date, and i'm still struggling to finish few more. That's including Al-quran which i have few juzu' to khatam, alhamdulillah..yet i think i shud be more abiding because i think i used to deviate from my original plan lately. hehe duh! It's common,isn't it? We are so-typical human being.

Friends and families have been asking countless times regarding of my job placement. So i dun wanna sound like i was lamenting myself of not getting any clues on where i'll be posted, hence i told them.."soon..i'll tell u once it's confirmed k?" whereas, the real situation is, my heart deeply screaming "heck i know when will i start kicking some asses to do a some real work!"

So the situation is now, i'm helping myself for not losing self-possession in conjunction of my recent situation. Last week, i mean last monday, syu texted me and told such a breaking news i've ever wanted to hear! she just received an offer letter and she'll be start working this coming november! i was overwhelmed. i was like, continuosly thanks to Allah s.w.t upon receiving her good news. Alhamdulillah.. for at least one of my friends is ready to get her hands dirty, and it's absolutely a great feeling, isn't it?! Well, there were 3 of us. BAcc (hons) UM 2008 of Petronas' scholars whom recommended for an employment. 1 down, and 2 left to go(me and anys). Well anys is a diff situation. He already got the offer unfortunately due to his health problem, the offer is detained. Poor him. :'( and right now he's waiting for i-dun-now-how-many-times-he-had-undergone medical check-up this coming november. (how are u anys?hope u are doin great now..)

It's not a bizarre notion and in fact i think, as a muslim i should beleive in Allah s.w.t heartfully and never get upset of any situations that Allah has stated on me. There's always a hidden reason back in whatever happened. Although at times, it takes our whole life to understand why such a situation happened to us, right? No doubt that sometimes i do feel like a loser when i see my friends capturing their great moments in their workplaces. I shudnt feel that way, shudn't i?

Apart from that, i'm grateful to have my other half beside me. Though we are far miles away..yet you are so deeply closed in my heart. He always know how to make it my day. I always smiling whenever i talk to him. This calm feeling...is unexplicable. At least i know..part of me is happy and doin great now.

I'll cherish every moment being your soulmate,dear...:))

wallahua'lam.

saya kembali tersenyum :)
saya kembali tenang...

terima kasih, kekaseh...
kamu selalu disisiku...

till we tie the knot...u'll always be the bolster to lift up my life :)

. . .
saya tertekan.
saya minta maaf.

the ugly face of me.

full

kenyang.
ptg td pegi openhouse kechik. diajak alia pukul 11 pg td. trus diajak alia ke rumah fuza pula dlm 3.30ptg.
sedap.
semua nya.
nasi ayam drumah kechik dan nasi beriyani drumah fuza.
baru harini dpt ketemu balik sikit kwn2 sebelajar d UM dulu.
housemates trutamanya.
kami bergosip.
haha.
sgt rindu.
kata emi "aku rase macam nk amek cuti, sewa rumah, pastu kite nyeeembang aje smpai pengsan.."
haha. haha. trsembul sikit air oren. ala sikit je.
esok masih ade beberapa rumah dalam senarai utk disinggah.
kena ikut turutan. tp tataula kesampaian.
hehe.
mlm ni makan jagung manis saje.
kenyang.
ngantok.
.....mungkin nk tdo pula.

wallahua'lam.

sampai bila-bila

nah..mak beli hadiah harijadi..

eh?*senyum* bile mak beli? beli katne?

tadi..mak beli kat JJ Maluri..

yeke..*sambil mengoyak2 balutan hadiah dgn ayu*

mak beli baju ke? baju pompuan..?

tak..bukaklah..baju kurung pesak gantung..yg kakak suke tuh..

yeke..? *riang* waaah..cantiknye..kaler maroon..time kaseh mak..

i wish i cud share with u guys n snap a pix of the formal shirt n baju kurung pahang that both my parent bot for my 23rd anniversary..but then again..my sis brot the cam to her campus..:'(

kakak sayang mak.
sayang ayah juga.
sampai bila-bila.
walau kita tak semesra seperti ibubapa-anak yang lain.
tapi jauh dalam hati ini.
kasih itu da tertanam.
sampai bila-bila.
airmata ni tak terbendung.
tiap kali fikir bila agaknya tiba saat kakak bekerja.
dan buat mak dan ayah bangga.
hidup ini hanya untuk melihat mak dan ayah gembira.
sampai bila-bila.
mak dan ayah adalah kasih kakak yang pertama.
sampai bila-bila.
*weeping*

wallahua'lam.

i'm not a cheese! :)

hah i'm 23!

:))

yesterday, upon my 23rd anniversary, i'd made a significant decision. n i wish i'd made the right one.

many thanks to all of my famili, cousins n friends for ur rememberance! :)) i'm sorry for not thanking each of u guys personally. but hey! that doesnt make u guys insignificant for me. ur company what makes my life complete all this time. keep that in mind k! :))

my 23rd anniversary isn't as special as anyone wud expect (yalah i'm a housekeeper. what can b more dull than that?) despite that i hv my great famili around me. mom, dad, afiq n faris. incomplete yet enraptured. i cant thank u enof, dad. for the cake n the special birthday gift u bought for me. inspired. ebullient. i wish i cud wear the shirt to working in a near future. or perhaps in the comin interview :P

what can b more joyous than havin 2 of ur loved ones singing a classic 'Happy Birthday to you' song for you in the morning of ur birthday..? :))

well i hv my dad n my keqaseh, incek Fairus to sing that for me. unanticipated. esp when it comes from my dad! he suddenly called me on 9.00am to ask bout his thumbdrive that he accidentally left near the phone. hah. whatta sly tot, dad. :)) then goes the off-pitch singing from my dad. hehe..it's ok, forgiven for once. :P

n today is my dad's 48th anniversary. it's sweet, isn't it? to hv ur famili's anniversary a nx day to urs :) happy 48th anniversary, dad! may u hv a long-great-life with us, ur offsprings n dear mom! :)

i wish i cud buy something special for u dad, on ur anniversary :'(

but i promise. once i receive my first pay, it'll b my family's treat the first thing i wud spend the money.

i love u dad :) till my last breath. this blood is urs. n nothing will destruct the ties.

Age is something that doesn't matter unless you are a cheese
-Billie Burke

wallahua'lam.

dad is craving over my mee goreng??
hah how good is that sound? :)

today no, yesterday i intentionally created a tiny-silly issue with incek Fairus just to get unnecessary attention from him (well enof said.i'm using 1+3 Celcom plan n it's like cost me nothing to call him plus! ever since we subscribed the plan..i dun even get a chance to pay my bill! oh! i must hv gone daft to created the issue! :'( dear..i cant thank u enof..) he mad at me. i know. knowing his silent n a usual text "hmmm..." he sent to me. :'( it was so mean of me. i know. i shudnt.

i'm goin to keep it off record.

thz evening..i texted him. apologizing. i called him "keqaseh..". praying hard that it works n he'll text me back with a smile.."..:)"

heh. it works. alhamdulillah. :))

he texted me back
"i wish i cud bring u out to a dinner tonight..to celebrate ur 23rd..juz the two of us..:("

handicuffed. dear..bring me to wherever u want.

i know it'll never happend till we tie the knot. ther's a fine line between us. well dare to dream coz it'll keep u moving on.

Never look where you're going
Always look where you want to go.
-Bob Ernst

wallahua'lam.

The episodes...

27 Ramadhan
My famili n I, a complete members of 8, together we had our breaking fast before going back to hometown tomorrow at Nasi Padang Restaurant near to KLCC, so then we can easily go to Surau KLCC to perform solah terawikh.

lots lots of food! :D my saliva almost dripping everytime i looked at the foods! gosh :) well i can only remember not even half the name of the foods, since we had approximately 20 types of lauk-pauk served in front of us!







28 Ramadhan
We began our journey to kelantan around 11am in d morning. since we were just inserted an alarm to our house, ADT Security System, a week ago..so we make sure all the windows and doors are well-closed before we set up the alarm. yala..one week off to hometown, sape tak curious bout our home safety kan? it has to b tip-top, then u're good to go!

We were in half of journey to Gua Musang when my dad received a call from ADT Call Centre telling that ther's an open zone at Back Window..! what,huh?! we were shocked. the call totally got our nerves. n rationally,i supposed, we made a decision to turn back to Alam Damai. hah. mane ta keje gile namenye. flustered, my dad called the police of Alam Damai branch n report the call received from ADT Security System. 10 minutes later, dad received a call from the police officers telling that ther's a break-in attempt at Back Window. which the window is in an open condition. unfortunately, they found no suspect. hah. terkejot beruk lagi skali. kitorg pon bisinglah dlm kete tuh arguing yg sume tgkap da check btol2 bfore kuar. lgpon, the alarm system cannot be set up till all the doors n windows are well-closed. bykla andaian, mungkin suspek lari after dgr bunyi alarm yg trpekik2 tuh tnpa sempat bertembung dgn pak polisi.hmmm~

The clock is timed 3.30 pm when we arrived home. dad esp, immediately jumped over the car as soon as we reached home to check the back window. mmg. mmg trbuka. after dealing with the police n the watchmans that the neighborhood hired to look after the residents, we began our journey back around 5.30 pm. praying hard that ther'll b no such a fuss situations like this while we were at kelantan. :finger-crossing:

Nak ditambahkn lagi tragiknye hari kami..around 10.00pm while everyone's in a sleepy mode..including me..n farhan is still driving to reach Pasir Puteh..~ a crazy Turkey man had nearly caught us into an accident! alhamdulillah..none of us are injured. still..our dear odyssey is crashed :'(





still i think, that crazy Turkey man is sound mind when he keep on apologizing for the incident to be happened n handed over a bunch of a Thousand Ringgit Malaysia to us..as a sign of remorseful. hah :) very the flitty rich lah this turkey man :))

1 Syawal
Hmm...this time,our syawal celebration is in a melancholy mode..or shud i say, gloomy. tears..were tagging along the sesi minta-maap in d morning. aihh~ abes make-up ai~ hehe :D well enof of the tragic episodes..one thing for sure, this year raya celebration will b one of the most unforgettable moments that we had. :)

enjoy the photos then!
wallahua'lam.

after 2 weeks..

wah wah da bersawang2 blog nih..hehe :) at last, i managed to get into this cyber space n updating fs, fb n blog.

wah, rindu! :)

banyak yg nak diceritakan..sabar ye sahabat2..emm btw, the previous post was just published a minute ago..ta sedar, berkepok2 dkat draft tggu nk dipublish..hee..:)

till then.
wallahua'alm.

The 20th September

it was a loong day for me. so much that happened; and contentment was the most feeling that had meddling me :)

1. A breaking fast banquet with some of my relatives.

Menu : Nasi Kerabu (main dish)
Udang goreng kunyit
Daging goreng lada hitam
Paru goreng
Ayam panggang lada hitam
Lemang
Jagung manis (steamed)
Onde-onde (kak suria's handmade)
Murtabak (bought from bazaar)
Roti John (Abgmat's treat)
Kurma
Air Tebu
Jus Oren
Teh O Panas

there was quite a number of my relatives attending my house, for breaking fast together..:)) i was sooo pleased despite the backbreaking works in preparing the foods. it's sad that i missed to catch the moment into photos or videos. aihhh~ tak menang tangan, since my other siblings excluding afiq n faris weren't there to lend a hands. they r not coming back since, they'll be back for raya next week. nonetheless, thank you for coming kins! :D

2. remember the previous post, i'd described on how i felt to b a makmum to one of imams at surau back of my house? his way of reciting surah..du'a..touched me..got deeply into my heart. n yesterday, the same imam was leading the terawikh prayer..n surprisingly, i got to know his name..:) guess what? Ustaz Fairuz ! :) i was thrilled! whatta coincidence...well~ :P

3. lastly..yesterday, is also a day for Us :) Mr n Mrs Fairus..:) it's our anniversary. yeayy! :) n i still counting days, years..to always b ur soulmate..n ultimately, ur wife. oh oh :) *blushing* thanx for the card that i received today, dear..u simply cant stop to surprise me! :) i was flabbergasted. esp when the card almost fell into afiq's hand. gosh!! cant imagine! despite that, i wanna apology for not havin anythg special to give u..:( pls accept my love n apprehension upon u since we r in a long-distance r/ship..:'( i surely will cook for u if u're a next door! :D
i love you n i'll always will...insyaAllah :) cant wait for our nx meet ths coming Oct!

Hawaian Tuna and Thai Supreme Pizzas

:)) well the members were me, miera, kema, mai, eha, ema, didi, samim n kawan didi.

we had a breaking fast time together yesterday :) earlier plan, i was told by miera that we're goin to eat at a restaurant near to our former-forever-beloved school, Maahad Hamidiah :) ( ya i know, i sound too maniac over my school :)) however, they change the place due to i-never-asked reason.:)

we had a great time, despite that we got deceived by the "Open back at 8.45pm" haha :P trkejut perut masing2. hence we took a window shopping while waiting for Pizza Hut to reopen the nx session. erk..i've never heard..even never experienced this sorta situation. a short break for maintenance?? erk..whutever. speaking of the short break, hehe..we or shud i say, i, inspired by eha ke..ke mai ntah..was intentionally told ema once i called her and asked bout her arrival; (halah..ta sampai2..cis) that we had ordered the meal n asked her to rush over here. hiks :P whereas, we weren't even get into Pizza Hut hehe :D we love u ema, dun get offended by this statement k?? my apology..:)) i was juz kidding. 

so we got into Pizza Hut around 8.30pm then, we ordered, we eat..we chat..we laugh..oh gossiping is a must, *teeett* haha :D like other punters were non-existing. we hang on till 10pm. later we split n kiss a goodbye. *sobs*

i love u guys. till our next meet. n hopefuly it's before samim's wed. muahmuah :))









wallahua'lam.

This is rather in a seventh heaven :)

..m hangin on my bed,
lean against wall with a comfy pillow supported my back.

i was back from performing solah terawikh at 9.40pm just now. passed tv, to catch a drink of water (awat la dahaga lpas terawikh eh? bkannye jd imam pon.hiks:P) later i found that i'd partly missed the KuMilikMu drama slot. herm, not a big deal. as i wasnt a kinda person who easily attached to follow the following series whenever they started to enjoy the story. :). well, the storyline was pretty cliche..interesting enof to make me giggling (it was too light to make me laughg like The Rock. egegege:D) while havin a pleasant moment with my famili.

at 10pm i rushed to my room as i'd promised to incek Fairuz to sleep early today. (err..we usually had a dozy-lovey chat before sleep..err) soon i found he had left me a message timed 9.33pm; that he wanna sleep early n apologized for not making it to 10pm. i wasnt upset, though :) pity him, he cramped with workloads today. he keep on telling me on how he was drained today. driving all the way to Sg Petani n back to Baling to repair a machine, some sort. hehe tatau pe ke namenye menatang tuh :P
" sabarlah..rehat..mlm ni tido awal" tu je yg mampu aku ckp..:))

well, enof of him :)

i was jotting down the things that i had done n perhaps cud be done tru out my 'unemployment' period (instead of thinking bout the so-coming-up-yet-so-unanticipated call from Pet..haha kan? :D)

1. cooking, sharpen my cooking skills :)
2. baking, (kek batik n blueberry cheese tart to bake for this coming eid) :P
3. finished 30 juzu' of Al-Quran :)
4. finished reading the unfinished novel The Forgotten War by David Fiddimore :P
5. continue reading RD (every month edition) haha ade je kdg2 tuh mgqada' edisi2 blan2 lepas :D
6. life-long learning. reading, writing, watch a tv, listen to a radio (Fly fm), anything will do to enhance my english grammar a.w.a the vocabulary, insyaAllah :)

i wish i cud be a better person everyday. :) learnt from mistakes. as the saying goes, ppl learn faster from mistakes. kan? try to be a more grateful person ..:) thru ups n downs situations. always n always believe in Allah swt. He is the Most Merciful and the Most Benificient :) i shud hv seen this situation as an opportunity; for me to become a better person. future is unforeseen to be said. thus, i shud turn 180degree n work for it. i hv a decision to make n i wish i'd made the right one :)

..this is rather in a seventh heaven, to be in grieve :)

No one ever finds life worth living-
he has to make it worth living

Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty.
Anyone who keeps learning stays young.
The greatest thing in life is to keep ur mind young
- Henry Ford

wallahua'lam.

...sayu
rasa hati ni usai solat terawikh td..
bacaan imam benar2 menyentuh perasaan..
lbih2 lagi bacaan doa td dbaca selang dgn terjemahan bhs melayu..
T_T

ya ALLAH..tiada daya upaya kami, ya ALLAH..melainkan dgn izinmu, ya ALLAH..

*weep*

wallahua'lam.

...my love for him grow deeper n fonder everyday :))

merci mon cher..je t'aime..",

wallahua'alam.

Kebarung + Char Kuew Tiao = a sheer bliss!

wah..title pon da mengancam kan?egegege :D

this morning, while doing houseworks..cleaning refrigerator, mopping n what not, afiq cames to me.. "kak, da tghari lah..yeye!" "nape dgn tghari?panas terik ni..ape yg yey nye?" "penat lah..cuci2 peti ais ni..puasa.." "alah sikit jek..kakak hari2 cuci2..kemas2..ta penat pun" (erk.ada bunyi angkuh bukan? haha as if i care..:)) "yeke kakak ta penat..tipu..kalau mbebel tuh bkan tanda penat ke?" (wah!dlm silibus Pemahaman dajah 3 ade blaja cara2 'mempertahankn diri' ek? cis.) "kak..arini ayah kate nk p beli baju raya lah! yey! da tghari!" (hehe..afiq ni lah~:D)

thereafter..around 2pm, after performing zuhr prayer, me n my famili, well that's excluding gee n farhan yg bertapa kat UTP..it'll b a 6 of us, we began our shopping tour at Bandar Tun Razak. wah ostentatiously wrote like we're havin a massive raya shopping spree...:)) hehehe :) tade lah. and there, afiq found his baju melayu sama songkok sama sampin.faris, my 2nd last lil bro, he has a bit problem in finding a suit baju melayu for himself as he has an odd height n fitting, shud i say?? (haha..emm..kami ke faris yg mpunyai tinggi yang abnormal??emmmm~taller n skinnier).

we further our jln2 cari baju raya to JJ Balakong..n there, faris found a pair of baju melayu hitam sama songket that suits him best. n as for me n fuai..the other twin of gee..we carry on googling..hunting for our baju raya~ ops!n there we bumped to a row of baju kebarung.*evil grin*.egegege..actually, it never cames to my mind to hv a pair of baju kebarung for this year eidulfitr..howevr, we just fell on'em! we totally get spoiled by the options..thehehe :D (siap fitting room tuh ktorg conquer..haha) kesudahannye...the 3 of us will b wearing baju kebarung for this year eidulfitr! :)) well, in a diff color of coz.

thereafter, around 5pm..we left JJ Balakong n went to bazaar ramadhan. ha lah, mao balik memasak? erk..minta ampun. ta larat. n there, i found my Char Kuew Tiao~ wuuh~ siap masak on the spot ye sahabat2. soo tempting! :ooze saliva: oih sabar jelah..neway,cekap tao anti neh! :thumbsup!: :D

well that's bout it, our raya shoppin spree for this year :D

wallahua'lam dan selamat berbuka :)

My Name is Raja Aini Fairuz Raja Adli

What Your Name Says About You

Your name says that you are mostly: Fiery but unbalanced Your name also says you are: Ambitious but stubborn Talented but unmotivated Artistic but extreme

What Does Your Name Say About You?

haha :D is that true? can't figure it out...yep that's me, though :)

I'm a Young Adults, though :)

Texting, not Talking..

A study by Professor Helen Haste of the Nestle Social Research Programme in London confirmed that for young adults, texting was crucial in their interaction with parents.

....=) they say that it's the discreet nature of texting that makes it so appealing for young ppl, like me..again i repeat, young ppl like me :D to keep in touch while..emm maintaining our own space. it does sounds real, doesn't it? but ever since i'm using 1+3 Celcom package, Talking is my preference..;P ckp byk2 ta payah bayar, sape tak mao?? egegege~

ha...ni lg satu habit skrg. sambil pegang stereng, smbil nak sms.kunun cekap.:D mao cari maut.

pick one, Texting or Talking?
:)

wallahua'lam.

Thee (alone) we worship; Thee (alone) we ask for help. [1.5, AlFatihah]

I was driving back home from sending afiq to sekolah agama this afternoon, n was listening to Hot FM. n suddenly this song cames to play n give me a hit! i'm not used to be Ayu's big fan back then when she was in the OIAM2 Grand Finale. n in fact i was supporting Shila. i tot Ayu was some sorta typical underdog that'll b winning on dat nite. no hurt feelings ye Ayu's big fan. :D

however, somehow this song gaves me a deep thought n someway it makes my heart start singing n my lips start smiling :) she sangs like it was my very first time i heard of it. it is a beautiful song. the song fires me up! telling me that i shud hv never given up at all! i shud hv never feel regret of what hv been stated by The Creator to me. like right now, i feel like screaming! yeah! :D live life that matters! n in fact i shud b thankful that i got recommended from The Structured Interview.

i shud grab this opportunity to keep praying..hold hands uptight, i know Allah is The Most Benificient and The Most Merciful..since we r in a holy month of Ramadhan.

yeay! :D chaiyok peos! no more tears..no more fears..beleive in Allah swt.

wallahua'lam.

enjoy the song then!

Mimpi dan harapan
Cecita yang tinggi menjulang
Tak pernah terluahkan
Hanyalah di hati tersimpan
Terpendam
Keterbatasan diriku menjadi penghalang

korus:
Sampai bila aku bertanya sampai bila
Ku harus mencuba
Bila lagi desak hatiku bila lagi
Aku harus berani

Lalu ku bangkit tegak berdiri
Mengatur langkah ku terus mendaki
Cita-citaku
Di mercu

Mimpi dan harapan bagaikan duri yang mencengkam
Seandainya ku biar cecita dihati tersimpan
Terpendam
Keterbatasan tak wajar menjadi penghalang

Bridge:
Aku mencari kekuatan
Dalam kelemahan
Aku temui kejayaan
Dalam keberanian