semakin dekat semakin sukar

9hb & 15hb Dec dah semakin dekat.

berhempas-pulas mencuri masa dicelah-celah kesibukan kerja untuk mengulang kaji pelajaran.

oh bukan mengulang kaji. dah tak sempat. membuat latihan, latihan dan latihan. sehingga letihan.

bercakap tentang latihan, latihan kebakaran tanggal 18hb yang lalu sememangnye memberi kesan yg sangat MENDALAM.

56 tingkat ke bawah bukan suatu mainan kawan-kawan!

kaki sehingga hari ni masih sakit. biasa mengambil masa 5 saat untuk turun tangga. kini berminit-minit!

semalam temujanji dgn doktor gigi.

maka bermula lah episod tarik-menarik. sakit! sudah lama ditinggal sakit ni sejak Februari lepas. kini batang sayur bayam tidak lagi boleh digigit.

sakitnya berdenyut ke kepala.

jadual belajar hari ini terganggu kerana sakit-sakit ni. SAKIT.

keadaan semakin sukar.

kerja, semakin dekat dengan tarikh cuti peperiksaan, semakin banyak. semuanya menguji kesabaran dan kewibawaan.

mengeluh, jangan.

disempurnakan segalanya dgn sebaik yang mungkin. tempat kerja kini sudah bukan lagi menjadi tempat yang selesa.

dan kesimpulannya aidiladha akan di sambut sepi kerana mak ayah bulat hati mahu pulang ke kampung awal. cuti, tidak boleh.

air mata..menitis, jangan.

kesukaran ini pasti berbayar. pasti. pasti.

wallahua'lam.

betul-betul sebulan

o yeahh~ i had a shitty week. badan lembik macam tilam toto yg boleh dilipat-lipat, dihenyak-henyak.

i'm in the revision mode beginning last saturday till yesterday. gosh i'm so glad the week is finally over. no the exam is not over yet tho. out as early as 7am n got home as late as 10.15pm. @_@

since i'll be attempting 2 papers this coming dec sitting, therfore i hv to put extra-nescafe-sugar efforts towards the exam preparation. and as far as the revision goes, i think i'm still in the avenue towards facing the examination. alhamdulillah. thanks to the tutors.

this few weeks has been difficult for me. at times, i tend to be skeptical and lost my rationale. i've been whimpering and complaining over everything. work wise as well as study. astaghfirullahalazim. naudzubillah. T_T

i didnt realize that i was blessed with so many things that other ppl could hv been struggling for it.

Frustration is your worst enemy, for it has the power to destroy peace of mind

so true.

keeping a positive mind and open mind seem to be easier said than done. but it's actually effortless given that you have faith in Allah swt. as i was reading some articles written by Dr. A'id Al-Qarni, regretting past failures and weeping bitterly for calamity are manifestations of disbelief in Allah swt and discontent with what He has decreed. naudzubillah :( O Allah swt, let not my heart deviate from the truth after You have guided us...

i shall be thankful. alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...for bitterly situations i had, for it is a sign that He wants me to keep the remembrance of Him.

30 days to go for the 2nd war.

and i shall whack the examiners this time around. and win the world-prize. dream on! haha. it's utter far reaching. pass sudah :P

wallahua'lam.