definitly need a tonic.

i think i'd left so much things that happened last few days to b shared in this dear blog.

i'd lost myself till i turned on my assassin mode last week. killing time. *grr..grr*. i left alone during weekdays which i presumed was not frightening at all till elli asked me.. "ko ta takut ke dok umah sorg2??" hah?? what tha. .elli was totally remind me of my loneliness..jobless..n penniless?? *yelah..kalu ade duit da lame ku jln2 ronda2 lawat membe2 ke..kan?kan?kan?:P*

last week was pretty much homey. i mean i rili am being at home. no outing. from as early as 10am till my mom back from school, around 5pm. actually, we were having a reconstruction to our kolam ikan n some small backyard area, near to the wet kitchen. which i feel it was not pleasant at all! *dlm rumah pon kena pakai tudung tao! ces sunggoh!* the reconstructg is done yesterday.

the result was...emm...considering that i'm not an art person like Pablo Picasso...which i think my opinion wont b much counted, least as a person, as a meticulous woman which i very much appreciate a shipshape n serene surrounding..i dun like it at all!! *sori mom n dad..i was being straightforward* tp when i asked my mom whether she's satisfied with the outcome..she said "tak cantik...tak kemas...pastu abis lantai2 mak ni jd teruk trkene simen2 diorg...cuci pon da ta cantik...haihh sabarje lah.." wah wah sep! sep! gimme 5 mak! :D mmg ta cantik...then my dad plak ckp.." kalau cemtu..byr je diorg...pastu ckp, sy takkan pggil kamu buat keje dgn kami lg " wah ayah lg tensen..bkan sbb tensen ta cantik...tensen sbb byr RM2000++, tp hasilnye ; kalau bg kami anak-beranak dgn kreativiti afiq yg menang tmpt ketiga prtandingan mewarna..sure lg santep tau! huhh! shoh shoh jgn dtg lg~

ther'll be a real fuss if u try to messing around me. esp when it comes to my home. my famili. *baiti wa jannati* shoh shoh.

suddenly my Incek Fairus crossed my mind.

emmm :'(

i miss him.

i wish he was here.

ya..he was here..tantalizgly near..in my heart :'((

wallahua'lam.

Ramadhan 1429: September 1 2008

a blink.

aihh..sedar tak sedar Syaaban da menghampiri ke penghujung dan Ramadhan yang dirindui kian menjelma..

bak kate mira semalam "tak sabar nak Ramadhan..yelah..bleh jadi baik sikit..hee :)"

sangat sangat setuju..bila masuk bulan Ramadhan..sedar ta sedar, kite akn brubah kearah yg lbih baik..trutama bg diri ku lah..solat ketika masuk waktu..(mudah2an hee :)) kurang brcakap benda2 lagho sgt..hee..sekurang2nye..ta sekerap di bulan biase..:P sbb sbg muslim, sifat menghormati bulan Ramadhan itu da trtanam sejak kita memahami erti kalimah syahadah..

"Asyhadu allailaha illallah..wa asyahadu anna muhammad rasulullah.."

Aku naik saksi bahawa tiada tuhan selain Allah..dan Aku naik saksi bahawa Muhammad itu pesuruh Allah..

Astaghfirullah..betapa besar kalimah syahadah tu..diucap berulang2kali tika solat..tanpa sedar, kite ni da mlafazkan janji dihadapan Allah swt..tp pernah ta trpk ade tika kite trobsess dgn kenikmatan dunia..dn tanpa sedar trlupa dgn janji tu? Allah Maha Besar..tahu yang manusia ni adalah selemah2 hamba yang diciptaNya..sbb tu ada tika kita ditarik sedikit kesenangan..kenikmatan..makanan..supaya kita kembali kpdNya..kembali bertaut pd janji tu..dn tau yang kehidupan di dunia ni adalah suatu pinjaman..

kalau kite..org brjanji..dn tanpa/ dgn kehendak org tu..dia memungkiri janjinye..uihh..msti kite bengang habiskn? ade tika kite spill a curse tanpa sedar..punye la tensen..tu baru sorg..ce bygkan..dlm berjuta2 umat manusia dlm dunia ni..ta trkire yg da memungkiri janji dgn Allah swt..kalau lh..Allah swt terspill a curse pd kite..uish Nauzubillahiminzalik..ta dpt diri ni nk bygkan..Astaghfirullah..dimohon keampunan byk2 drNya..:((

terase cam islamik siket arini..ntahla..mgkin sbb in d midst of killing time while keeep on waiting for unanticipated calls..hee :) dn kehangatan nk menyambut bulan Ramdhan pon semakin terasa..tringat, ape ye prsiapan ku kali ini..mgkin beli kurma ke?? hee..:)) haihh~ terase sgt miskin ilmu ni..

dikesempatan ni..ku nk mohon maaf atas segala salah silap..terguris hati2 sahabat sekelian ke..termungkir janji ape2 ke..trhutang ape2 ke..(eh kalu ade, kaba2 kan lah ye?)..dn ape2lagi lah yg terrrr..:))

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak buat kalian sume..moge Ramadhan kali ni..kite same2 dpt lbih mndekatkan diri kpdNya..

wallahua'alm.

Home.

assalamualaikum :))

haiihh~ so good to be home. after a week at Kelantan. soo miss this lil cute laptop which i consider as my 'penyambung ke dunia luar'..:)) why i say so meh?? hihi..yalah..i'm not start working yet..sooo yet..hampir putus asa jdnye menunggu panggilan dr Pet..i'd made a call last 2 weeks..n they say i'll b start working mid of Sep..so hv to wait for the call to pick up the offer letter..wait..n wait..n keep on waiting..is the waiting is so worth..??i had given up so much othr opportunities for this..haihh~ ku brtahan nih pon..sbb ku da dkire recoomended for employment after the Structured Interview..but it has been more than a month after the result is out...bencinye perasaan nih... :gumpal2 suratkhabar n baling2:

can anyone tell..how do i resolve this situation..do i hv to keeep on waiting ir shud i juz move on n further my application to other companies?

wallahua'lam.

.i'm off science knowledge.

sakit belakang lagi.

antara tulang pinggul dan rangka tulang belakang.

*breath in..breath out..

sakit.

esok incek Fairus mao bawa ku check up di klinik.

*jz so happened he's still here attending a course held at hq of Healthtronic (M) Sdn Bhd at PJ.. cant thank u enof dear...:'( for ur deep concern upon me..tomorrow will b our last meet till raya..he'll be back working at Baling..i'll hardly pray for ur transfer to KL dear...je t'aime, mon cher..ana uhibbuka fiLlah..:')

doa yang baik2 ye untukku kalian.

wallahua'lam.

Marathon 2008

BAcc (Hons) UM 2008 ; Bachelor of Accounting

untuk tatapan sahabat2 sekelian yang ta sabar2 mao melihat gambar2 eksklusif graduasi ku..heee :) ku sbnrnye telah mengalami sakit2 badan kesan hari graduasi ku itu hari * the historical day of 09 08 08 ;) ini ku ceritakan bagaimana ku bleh dpt sakit2 badan yg brlarutan hingga ke hari ni.... *sbnrnye..ku mmg ade sakit..dtambah dgn kejadian hujung mggu lpas, sepertinye 3pil 3kali satu hari itu tdak mencukupi untuk rekoveri ku...:((

pagi 09 08 08 ku agak sebok..membeli brg2 dapor, 6bungkus nasi lemak *sbb dlm kotak empat segi besar brjenama Toshiba kami tuh..tade satu pon yg inspired me utk masak ape2.., menyapu, mengemas dapor, membasuh pinggan mangkuk, membasuh baju dn yg sewaktu dgnnye lah.. * o ye, tugasku jadi brtambah sbb mak ku off to school..

usai segala kerja2 rumah..ku pon brgegas2 ke bilik untuk mandi dn brsiap2..kali ni ku amek masa sedikit lame mao brsiap..yelah..haha;) dah siap santek2 sume..spt yg drancang, adikku farhan akan mghantar ku trlebih dahulu dlm pukul 12lbih *o ye, sesi ku adalah d sbelah petang ye :) keluargeku sume ta mao brtandang awal2 d tgh2hari terik itu..jd mereka menyusul pukul 2 lbih kerana majlis bermula pukul 3...

nk djadikan cerita..ku call alia utk teman ke Aras 1, BP..jd bjumpelah d bilik kakak nye di Menara Kejuruteraan dlm pukul 1..* o ye! para graduan harus brkumpul d Aras 1, BP pukul 1.45 untuk Queue ke DTC..ku ddlm tempoh haid, jdnye ku tadelah kalut sgt..sesampai dbilik kakak alia, kelihatan alia n laila masih tidak siap brpakaian *err..i mean wearing the rob :tutup mulut gelak:, dn masih brseluar jeans..jdnye ku tolong2lah ape yang patut..tanpa disedari, pukul 1.40 bru kami brgegas turun dr Menara Kejuruteraan itu..dgn alia n laila masih tidak brjubah konvo.. *oh! oh! maka bermulalah Marathon 2008 spt yg trtulis d title..dgn muke santek2, brhigh heels, brjubah konvo yang da senget2..kami brlari2 anak..melintas jalan *oh trime kaseh pak polisi yg mengawal lalu lintas..melintas org2 ramai *oh trime kaseh pd anonymous2 yg trsenyum2 smbil mengucap tahniah atas graduasi kami, maaf ta dapat melayan sapaan, kami da lambat!..memanjat bukit kecil d tepi DTC.. *oh bayangkan kalau kami trgolek :cekup muka: sesampai d tepi DTC, kelihatan spt graduan2 da bratur masuk ke DTC..kami d tahan oleh akak officer konvokesyen yang santek lagi peramah..katanye "lambat ye?tggu kat sini ye..awak da ta bleh join Queue ni.." ala sedeynye...:(( laila asek mngulang2 "ey..kite ni rupe cam tanak konvo"..rupe2nye ada lagi sekumpulan graduan yg lambat *adala dlm 20 org.. sebaik kami d beri masuk..kami dtempatkn d tmpt blkg skali *kire da ta ikut Q nama..kate akak officer, bile Penganugerahan Ijazah sarjana kamu brmula..baru kamu bleh masuk Q dgn yg lain2..ala sedeynye lagi...:((

usai penganugerahan ijazah oleh Pro-Canselor Toh Puan Normah..dn kembali ke Q brsama sahabt2 lain..ku menerima tujahan2 pertanyaan.."ko lambat ke peos?" smbil trsenyum "ye seperti loser ku duduk kat blakang"

well..that's bout it..on how i got d body aching..09 08 08 to be my most memorable day in life ;) enjoy the photos then.. :D credit to my adek farhan..the cameraman of that day..

sesampai jek d Menara Kejuruteraan *mane alia neh....

antara laluan2 Marathon 2008 ;)

Jalan-Jalan d Pesta sbelum Marathon 2008

Jalan-Jalan d Pesta II sebelum Marathon 2008

Ballons I *mau..mau..:((

Ballons II * they r so cute....:)

Gee n Afiq..patiently waiting for me...:))

bonded with blood..heart u guys :))

him..watchg from the screen outside the DTC..:))

sejurus keluar dr DTC..:)

The Family :)))

Meet Mrs Mazani n Mr Raja Adli, the mother n the father..heart u guys! :hug:

The Daughter. The Graduate. huhh..i almost drop a tears :'))

heart afiq. the lil troublemaker..almost ta pecaye yg dia stay cool on that day ;)

with Anies..:)) * keep holding on anies!!

eh..ku seperti trnampak...

syu lah..:)) spotted with d same theme color with mine. scholar mate. *sabar lah kite menunggu job posting ye syu...

Gee..thanks for ur presence n support..:))

meet..us :)) Mr n Mrs Fairus

The crowd.wow.

Tarian Singa pon ade. *pom! pom! ahaha :D

bak kate mak " gamba Dua beranak.." ahaha :D ade yg ta phm kah??

before..

...after! yeay!!! :D

before...

...and after again! yeayy!! :D

..without fuai..:(( the other twin of gee..

it's 103 years..i supposed..",

perasaan ini ta dpt d ungkapkan..syukran ilaAllah..brsama2 yg trsayang di hari graduasi..:) walau sedikit trkilan ta dpt brgambar brsama2 shbt2 yg lain..:( well, congratulation to us for making it to the ultimate day in a uni life..thanx a million for the sharing moments that we had..thru thick n thin as a uni stud..it has been 4 years guys..alhamdulillah..praise be to Allah swt :') apology for all my wrongdoings thru assignments, projects, presentations that we had together..as a leader n as a teammate..yes, a Uni degree does not make one as a finished product but an indication a person is prepared for a life..real life.. au revoir University of Malaya!!

.wallahua'lam.

a Blast Sunday :)

weeee~ :) yesterday incek Fairuz came to my house to visit my parent n having lunch together bcoz the day before *ari sabtu, the rehearsel day he didnt manage to meet my parents since we were already late for the rehearsel..hence as promised..he reached my house at around 1pm..

this is incek Fairuz's 4th attend to meet my parent..*dia spt agak neves..takut my ayah tanye bile nak ehem ehem..heeeee :) dun worry ayah..we r planning on it, it just about time..the right time:)

so the lunch, i cooked..

ayam masak merah

sayur pedas petola dengan kepingan soya kering

telur dadar berinti daun bawang, hirisan udang dan cili

ikan bawal kecil goreng kunyit * seekor tlh dkebas Garfield (kucing) yg samseng! cis sunggoh Garfield nih!

n we had..orange sunquick with tropical mixed fruits in it for the dessert..:) isn't it sounds tasty...?*haha :)

n we chat..we eat..n we chat again..:) *ah..perasan ini..melihat incek Fairuz brbual dgn ibubapa ku..heee~ so he hang in till 3pm..oh how i rili wish he cud just stay here...*hee~ gatai dah tu..:P

wallahua'lam.

Jalan-Jalan :)

aih..laptop ku rosak lg..bencis btul..jdnye ta dapat nk online salu..tumpang laptop mak jek..*ni yang ta sabar nk tukar laptop baru nih!

last saturday, i had a rehearsel..the convocation..thus, i woke up earlier than i used to..to prepare foods n do the cleaning..so i decided to cook spaghetti with chicken n button mushroom n a lil bit of daun ketumbar..*haha sedap ke? tanye la mereka2 yg bese mkn aku nye spaghetti..:)

at 9.15 am..incek Fairuz arrived to pick me up *dengan Benci!! :) my sweetheart Red Honda Jazz..heee~lame ta ketemu..so i packed some spaghetti for him n orange sunquick..unfortunately, he dont eat it..*incek Fairuz nih mmg sedikit cerewet ye kalian..sos cili sume ta mkn..burger pon mau mayonis aje..nugget n kentang pon mkn cicah mayonis..dia ade ckp, dia ta bese mkn spaghetti..emm..;)

hah.i was supposed to join a pre-convocation photo shoot with my frens..accordg to the deal is 8.45 am in front of DTC..haih..so i broke the deal..i didnt join them since i arrived at DTC slightly the rehearsel get started, at 9.30 am..my apology guys..:'( at around 10.45 am..the rehearsel ended n later i joined my frens..to chitchat..n watching my other frens gleefully photo-capturing, wearing full dress of rob..:) *aih...sgt suke tgk mereka2 sume amik gamba..ikut hati mao join, tp ku da janji dgn incek Fairuz mao 'jln2' brsamenye..:)

thereafter, me n incek Fairuz went to OU as we already bought a tickets to watch The Mummy, 1.50pm show..as we arrived there, we went to Pizza Hut to fill-in our empty stomach..so we ordered 1 set of Personal Island Supreme pizza..*buurpp~ :) later we went to catch the movie. Time flies so fast:'( ..around 4.30 pm in d evening, incek Fairuz sent me back home..

perasaan ini...:) hanya Allah swt yg tahu..syukran ilaAllah..diatas satu lagi hari yang bahagia buatku.."thanx for everything dear..everything..ana uhibbuka fiLLAH :)"

.5.54am this morning.

alhamdulillah..i reached home at 5.54 am thiz morning..with my mak. fyi, i'm away back to my village last monday..visiting my beloved grandpa..at Pasir Puteh, Kelantan.

my grandpa was called as tokcik.

tokcik.
sob..sob..sob..T_T
he's sick.
he got the second strok last sat morning..
he can't eat.
he only able to drink.
at times, he is conscious..n at the other time he's unconscious..

the 2days n 2nights at my grands' house was soo short till i wish i cud extend the stay more longer..everyday n evrynite..after every prayers (solah) that i performed..i'll b sitting nx to him n reciting du'a, surah yaasin, n ayat2 suci al-quran to him..

tokcik..

tokcik..

:'(

saat yg ta bleh dilupakan tatkala ku sampai d rumah tok pagi selasa dn trus berbisik ke telinga tokcik.."tokcik..kakak ni..kakak dtg jenguk tokcik.." sambil perlahan2 membuka mata..melihat ke arahku..tokcik menangis mengalirkan airmata..mmg ta bleh tahan..walaupon ramai sedara-mara di sekeliling menyaksikan saat itu..ku ta bleh tahan airmata dr trus mengalir..T_T
O Allah..rabb al-amin..sesungguhNya Kau Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu..ku redha diatas segala ketentuanMu Ya Allah..limpahilah rahmatMu ke atas tokcik..ku sayangi dia..