semakin dekat semakin sukar

9hb & 15hb Dec dah semakin dekat.

berhempas-pulas mencuri masa dicelah-celah kesibukan kerja untuk mengulang kaji pelajaran.

oh bukan mengulang kaji. dah tak sempat. membuat latihan, latihan dan latihan. sehingga letihan.

bercakap tentang latihan, latihan kebakaran tanggal 18hb yang lalu sememangnye memberi kesan yg sangat MENDALAM.

56 tingkat ke bawah bukan suatu mainan kawan-kawan!

kaki sehingga hari ni masih sakit. biasa mengambil masa 5 saat untuk turun tangga. kini berminit-minit!

semalam temujanji dgn doktor gigi.

maka bermula lah episod tarik-menarik. sakit! sudah lama ditinggal sakit ni sejak Februari lepas. kini batang sayur bayam tidak lagi boleh digigit.

sakitnya berdenyut ke kepala.

jadual belajar hari ini terganggu kerana sakit-sakit ni. SAKIT.

keadaan semakin sukar.

kerja, semakin dekat dengan tarikh cuti peperiksaan, semakin banyak. semuanya menguji kesabaran dan kewibawaan.

mengeluh, jangan.

disempurnakan segalanya dgn sebaik yang mungkin. tempat kerja kini sudah bukan lagi menjadi tempat yang selesa.

dan kesimpulannya aidiladha akan di sambut sepi kerana mak ayah bulat hati mahu pulang ke kampung awal. cuti, tidak boleh.

air mata..menitis, jangan.

kesukaran ini pasti berbayar. pasti. pasti.

wallahua'lam.

betul-betul sebulan

o yeahh~ i had a shitty week. badan lembik macam tilam toto yg boleh dilipat-lipat, dihenyak-henyak.

i'm in the revision mode beginning last saturday till yesterday. gosh i'm so glad the week is finally over. no the exam is not over yet tho. out as early as 7am n got home as late as 10.15pm. @_@

since i'll be attempting 2 papers this coming dec sitting, therfore i hv to put extra-nescafe-sugar efforts towards the exam preparation. and as far as the revision goes, i think i'm still in the avenue towards facing the examination. alhamdulillah. thanks to the tutors.

this few weeks has been difficult for me. at times, i tend to be skeptical and lost my rationale. i've been whimpering and complaining over everything. work wise as well as study. astaghfirullahalazim. naudzubillah. T_T

i didnt realize that i was blessed with so many things that other ppl could hv been struggling for it.

Frustration is your worst enemy, for it has the power to destroy peace of mind

so true.

keeping a positive mind and open mind seem to be easier said than done. but it's actually effortless given that you have faith in Allah swt. as i was reading some articles written by Dr. A'id Al-Qarni, regretting past failures and weeping bitterly for calamity are manifestations of disbelief in Allah swt and discontent with what He has decreed. naudzubillah :( O Allah swt, let not my heart deviate from the truth after You have guided us...

i shall be thankful. alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...for bitterly situations i had, for it is a sign that He wants me to keep the remembrance of Him.

30 days to go for the 2nd war.

and i shall whack the examiners this time around. and win the world-prize. dream on! haha. it's utter far reaching. pass sudah :P

wallahua'lam.

i've got nothing to say

tik tok tik tok!!

the clock is ticking. n time flew as fast as a wind blow.

now, month is coming to the eleventh.

phewwww...----

eleventh month so much tentatively packed with works and revision classes and courses and workshops.

...till the twelve month's event impending with slight preparation. haih haih. !*

fret not, fret not sisters. ada masa lagi. ada masa lagi. hais celah mane tah masa yang ada lagi tuh!

the crack of dawn shall be the alternative for me to accelerate the pending study. hais bad girl. bad girl.

till then...i've got nothing to say, except..

..except that Allah wills. Surely He knows the manifest and the hidden.And He will gradually make your path easy for you.Therefore go on reminding, surely the reminder benefits (them)...

Surah Al-A'la:7-9

wallahua'lam

it has been a while now

alhamdulillah...

alhamdulillah...

praise be to Allah swt...

:))

will be counting days now.

but not so soon. :P

final reflection

insha'Allah, we will be celebrating 1st of Shawal in less than 2 days. time flew as fast as a blink of eyes, and ramadhan has come to an end. feeling joyous to go back to hometown celebrating eid mubarak in spite, deep down somehow my heart's feeling weighty leaving ramadhan...

i know not my ibadah suffice ramadhan's blessing. moreover, will there be another chance to meet the next ramadhan. nauzubillahiminzalik...

o ALLAH, on this day, make my fasts worthy of appreciation and acceptance, according to what pleases You, and pleases the messanger. O the best of those who hear, wash away my sins, purify me from all flaws, examine my heart with the piety of the hearts...Praise be to ALLAH, the Lord of the worlds..
ameeeenn...

my family and siblings,
my other half,
my cousins,
my best friends (u know who u are),
my friends,
my cyber friends,
and utmostly...my ones-whom-despise-me :))

in the midst of anticipation to celebrate Eid mubarak, allow me to seek forgiveness for any offenses, physically or otherwise, purposely or unintentionally through unto u...sahla mmg aku ni kdg2 menyakitkan hati.wah mengaku!hehe. 

may everyone had a blast one. notwithstanding remembering our other Muslim brothers and sisters whom had a tough time and calamity around the worlds. may our zakat al-fitr channeled to them as it should be, inshaAllah. korg da bayar zakat belum??

lastly, nak siap2 masuk baju dalam beg. balik kampung. yippppie!! of graduating Ramadhan Class of 1430H (hehe!!!) i pray that Allah, my Lord the Most Merciful will continue to bless me with strength, willpower (deadline sebelum raya.semalam.huh) and determination that i had during Ramadhan..

Eid Mubarak.
Kullu 'am wa antum bikhair (May u be well thru out the year)
Taqabalallahu minna wa minkum (May Allah accept it from u and from us)

wallahua'lam.

bacalah...

"Verily the one who recites the Quran beautifully, smoothly, and precisely, he will be in the company of the noble and obedient angels. And as for the one who recites with difficulty, stammering or stumbling through its verses, then he will have TWICE that reward"
(Al Bukhari and Muslim)

Subhanallah..

see how Allah swt rewards His servant whom reciting His words. Those whom use excuses as such reciting alQuran is too difficult because his/her Arabic language is a lil bit rusty and that has deterred him/her from reading alQuran is utterly wrong and lame.

therefore my sisters, let's get started and make the change. let's start with 10 verses/day and increase the verses day-by-day, inshaAllah..Allah s.w.t will bestow on us the blessings of reciting His words.

...forgive me My Lord, for ignoring Your Words..for choosing to spend time reading gossip columns and news headlines written by your creations about your other creations instead of reading Your Words, The Creator of everything that exists in this entire universe...X(

Bismillah ir-Rahman ir-Rahim...
(In the name of Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful...)

wallahua'lam

Terima Kasih Cze

salam :)

hoh my blog almost archived! only if blogger.com has the Auto-Archive tool, like Microsoft Outlook do lah. haha. there are a lot of things happening that i can actually engrave it here. save for the workloads plus part-time ACCA study plus the E-prep or was it simply me being a lackadaisical? haha. ohoho the blog title happen to be truer day-by-day (haha cepat sket dari aku cakap month-by-month) hahaha..

anyway, now i feel like lettering again. no, writer not i wanted to be. :P as i said, i'm going to make my blog less personal. i might share some of personal things here, but it'll be just a minor. dun have to hv a specific reason for it, do i?

i'm reading a book. and that what makes me feel like to keep my blog updated :P

before that,

i was blog-hopping as i wanna catch up my friends' blog till i stopped at Cze's blog (I cant thank you enough for posted this news. How can i not aware of this news? i'm full of shame)

here what i found. what has tear my heart apart. i was shocked and almost cramped. till i finish reading the news article, my tears dropped. a lil till i realized i can no longer stop crying. it was heartbreaking.

Allahuakbar. imagine ourselves in her shoes. can we stand still and defend Islam as our utter and pure identity?

May Marwa al-Sherbini's soul showered with Allah s.w.t blessings.

Al-Fatihah.



CAIRO - A woman stabbed to death in a German court was an Egyptian who had sued her attacker after he insulted her for wearing the Islamic headscarf, Egyptian newspapers reported on Friday.

Marwa al-Sherbini, 32, who was killed in a court in Dresden on Wednesday, was the wife of Egyptian academic Elwi Ali Okaz who was also hurt in the incident and is now in critical condition in hospital, the state-owned Al-Akhbar reported.

The attacker stabbed Sherbini “shortly before she was to give evidence in an appeal lodged by the man against a conviction for insulting her over wearing the hijab,” said the state-owned Egyptian Gazette.

The 28-year-old man, identified only as Axel W, was overpowered and was being investigated for manslaughter over the killing of the woman, a spokesman for the Dresden prosecutor’s office said.

Magdi al-Sayed, press officer at the German embassy in Cairo, said the case was isolated and did not reflect German attitude towards Muslims.

“It is a criminal act. It has nothing to do with persecution against Muslims,” Sayed told the Gazette.

They killed her because she was veiled”, these were the first words of Tarek El-Sherbini brother of Dr. Marwa al-Sherbini.

In his first press statement to “Alyoum Elsabe” El Sherbini claimed that Marwa, his only sister had a son Mostafa who was three and a half and was also three months pregnant. The last time she visited Egypt was six months ago. He added that she called her parents last Tuesday, the day before yesterday, to check up on them.

Tarek said his sister was thirty years old and had received a Degree in Pharmacy in 2000. Marwa was working as a pharmacist in Germany. Her husband was supposed to receive his PhD this month and was worried about his wife’s health as she was kept in Intensive Care.

He stressed that “the Germans kept the crime a secret because it had taken place inside the court where Marwa was murdered because of her headscarf” he added “we want nothing but her rights back, because she was killed for practising Islam even before she travelled to Germany… her parents still don’t know she was killed inside the court, all they know is that she died”.

Dr. Mohamed Gaber Abu Ali, Head of the Cultural Affairs and Missions in the Ministry of Education stated that Marwa El-Sherbini, the wife of the Egyptian envoy Elwi Ali Okaz and lecturer in the Genetic Engineering Institute, of Monoufeya University, had a personal scholarship from Max Blank Institute, was stabbed by a German citizen and died instantly, her husband was mistakenly shot in the courtyard of Landes Gericht Dresden in Dresden City.

Source: Fact International / Agencies

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Wallahua'lam

YES!

Yes to your beautiful smile that sends a message of warmth and friendliness to others

Yes to your kind words that establish friendship as permitted in Islam and dispel rancour

Yes to acceptable charity that brings happiness to the poor and feeds the hungry

Yes to sitting with the Quran, reciting it, pondering its meanings and acting upon them, and repenting and seeking forgiveness

Yes to remembering Allah a great deal and praying for forgiveness, persisting in du'a and offering sincere repentance

Yes to raising your children in Islam, teaching them the Sunnah and guiding them to that which will benefit them

Yes to modesty and hijab as enjoined by Allah swt, which is the means to self-protection

Yes to the friendship of good women who fear Allah swt, love Islam and respect high values

Yes to honouring one's parents, upholding the ties of kinship, honouring one's neighbours and caring for orphans

Yes to reading useful, interesting and beneficial books

Dr. A'id al-Qarni

Inspiring. whadda lovely book. i'll read them cover-to-cover. Insya'Allah ",

wallahua'alam

O Ramadhan!

Ramadhan is the month during which the Quran was revealed, providing guidance for the people, clear teachings, and the statute book. Those of you who witness this month shall fast therein. Those who are ill or travelling may substitute the same number of other days. Allah swt wishes for you convenience, not hardship, that you may fulfill your obligations, and to glorify Allah swt for guiding you, and to express your appreciation
(Al-Baqarah 2:185)

ku pejam mata

sabarlah hati...

...resah itu akan berlalu pergi

One step ahead...

alhamdulillah..syukur ya Allah ",

majlis kecil tadi berakhir dengan perasaan gembira dan tenang terpancar pd wajah masing-masing

walau kalut dan gementar, dan semesti kami tak dapat lari yang merupakan kali pertama

terima kasih, semua

ia sempurna dengan adanya kalian

*hugss*

11 Oktober 2009

ku nantikan ",

traGedI oktObeR

oh Oh!

*floundering around*

+ve vibes

Dear diary…

Today I had a good day :) few days back was a bit gloomy for me. I was emotional and sad. And of course, of all factors that you might think of the reason why I was behaving that way…it must hv got to do with me n my other half…kann? Ya right.

What else could affect you so much other than your love and intimate life?

I always know that he’s the one for me. We fought, we hated each other till I feel like to hit *dush dush* him, (neither him nor I in actual fact would dare huh? cakap besar ta hengat..hehe :P) however the Love between us is stronger than the former, and that what makes us still together today. anyway it's the passion that made us felt that way, isnt it? :) Love what makes human unsound. Nevertheless, we learnt from mistakes and became the same person with a better (or another insanity?) fi’il everyday..hehe :P

I know ive always be the same me as 10 years back ppl know me..sensitive and weepy. Okay,tell u a secret *membuka pekung di dada* I was, now da tak lah..hehe..whenever I want a haircut either by my mom or went to a salon..tho it was clearly by my intention, I always always always ended up with a tears. Haha go and laugh at me. but yup I’m not making it up. It’s true. Last time is when I was in form 4. I’m not sure myself, why must I cry every time I see my hair being cut. Ya it was rather a sentiment. keh keh.

kakak kamu kan…takkan tak kenal, dari kecik gunting rambut je menangis…pasaipa taktau

-mak

I’ve grown up and I cried less. Hmmm…less could be more for certain ppl bcoz I cried like real a LOT, right? Haha. Like simply every time tgk cite Hindustan, I MUST hold a pillow…a trick indeed, to sorok muka bile hidung da berair. (Haha i know it wasnt only me, dun pura-pura ya guys.) It was melancholy or…rather pathetic? whatever. you tell me :)

6 days off from last Wednesday purposely for ACCA preps is I dun know, enough…but I wish I could hv more! Hehe! The examination is on June 3rd. since it’ll be my first attempt on ACCA, cuak is a must la kan. *gasp*. Okay okay, ther’ll be only a +ve ion in me by now. Let’s be professional, and get it over with. Fighto-o!

Tomorrow, the long wait has come to an end. (Eceh cam mysterious gile. haha gelabah! :D) After nearly 6 months of not seeing each other, tomorrow my other half and I will meet up. He’ll have a serious discussion with my father bout the ‘plan’. *muka serious -_-!*

We shall see the outcome tomorrow ye me fellas :)

p/s I know, at thz momeny ayie and aleng must be so full of nervous for their BIG day tomorrow (engaged) and the day after tomorrow (tie the knot!). All the best and may happiness will come along ur way. insyaAllah, I knew you guys will be a great parents for ur coming offspring (lagi ta bley blah, blum ape2 lagi da berangan anak org) . aleng has been my childhood friend, and ayie is my MH mates…hmmm…since we’re having an economic downturn now ya guys, I shall confirm my attendance to ayie’s place :P

jap. what does my attendance has got to do with the economic downturn anyway? cet. haha mcmlah dtg kenduri bwk hadiah. pewut. pewut yg penting.

chiao.

wallahua’lam.

will i end strong?

lately I had something that keeps on bugging me.

it’s trivial, but enough to make me weedy.

will I end strong?

when everything and everybody appear to be against me.

*sigh*

somehow rather, I better leave and go for a place that would make me pleased.

never at once, I ever felt appreciated for things that I done. I guess they dun know how to appreciate a talent like me, do they? No I didn’t mean to flatter myself. what I was trying to say is that, I’m a newbie and they could’ve realized the possibilty of igniting the potential in me and everybody else of the same level with me.

at times, they tend to misunderstand me. simply because they dun wanna hear me. my judgement will only be relevant subject to their gibberish swinging mood. gender issues, guys. gender issues * ouhh how I wish I’m not a female*

yeah......that’s life. it meant to be unfair. life never conceived to be a place that would satisfy us.

however, i'm still grateful that apart of that ppl who seems very pessimist on me...ther's still a few ppl whom able to recognize my potential, whom willing to give me a helping hands :)

i guess i need to see my mentor. i really need somebody to consult me, to make me feel better.

wallahua'lam.

To where i am belong

Currently I'm in mobile. After 3 months attached to Group Accounts & Service Department, yesterday was my official day being transferred to where the first day I was supposed to be. IFSSC Project. Therefore right now, I'll be a full-time team member of IFSSC Project in which will took 3 years until the system go live.

I can't say much about the project yet. As far as I concerned, it'll include much of my knowledge and experience in Project Management (in which I'm a Certified e-Business Professional in Project Management by name, in life? Haven't been assessed yet as the certificate that I owned was came from attending 1 month +++ course) and my finance and treasury knowledge (in which two of the papers that I hatred most back in my university). See how demanding it'll be? Gosh.

Doing things you dun like, is growing up.

Yeah I've grown up much. (and then why am I still shorter, and getting skinnier?) *sigh*

Audit? Finance? Treasury?

I'll never get a chance to experience Taxation, the area that i LOOOOOVE most.

Woop..one more thing!!

The department in where I am temporarily placed now (Group Treasury) before going to the IFSSC Project Office, the ppl here was just waaaaaaaaaaay too kind! They were really cooperative and explaining everything about IFSSC thing to me, without me asking for it. Ohhh~ that's verry thoughtful of them. The environment is totally contrary from where I came from.

*grinning*

Counting the black sheeps, in the family.

i should hv been sleeping by now.

i dun know what i'm doing.

must be the coffee ice.

kodi betul.

Somebody please pinch me

Yeah

feel like ages since my last post.

tell you what. i'm doing good with my working life. it sucks sometimes, tho. but i'm more grateful for what i've earned to date. experience, knowledge, friends and of course my pay *grinning* hehehe

another thing,

i'm now spinning over time for my first upcoming ACCA attempt. June 3rd,to be precise. my o my. now i know the bitter of studying while working. it's far demanding when you got to push yourself to wake up early in the morning. okkay it's 4am. simply because that's the only time that i'm free-of-any-thing-&-thought to like really open-&-study up my revision books. to study on the late night?? forget bout that. i'm even fell asleep early night. to study on weekends? well basically the class is on weekends. the study goes with the letcurer lah, kan. not to mention the wedding receptions, friends engagement and what-not that i'd to attend aloooong this year. adooih. so that's basically all what makes up to the grounds of the above matter. to study in the early morning. i mean like, REALLY early.

i miss you guys.

all of you.

wallahua'lam.

Selamat Ulangtahun...ya Habiballah ya Rasulullah s.a.w

Selamat ulangtahun ya Rasulullah s.a.w...
Semoga banyak yg boleh kami jadikan iktibar dari kisah2 hidup, perjuangan mu ya Rasulullah...
Semoga kami tidak alpa dengan limpahan kenikmatan dunia, tatkala masa berlalu tanpa kami sedari...
Walau kita tidak pernah bersua, hadirmu..wajahmu..perjuanganmu..terasa sungguh dekat dihati ini, ya Rasulullah...
Betapa ku ingin bersua dengan mu, ya Rasulullah...kekasih Allah...
Hati ini sebak. Rindu.
Semoga tidak putus selawat kami keatas mu, ya Rasulullah...

*airmata mengalir*

mengapa hati ini trlalu sebak....? sesak.

ya ALLAH...kau kuatkan hati ini...ku ingin selalu berada di jalan Mu ya ALLAH.

...berkatilah hidupku. semoga nawaitu ku ingin mengerjakan umrah sebelum ku mnjejak ke alam perkahwinan, mndapat keizinanMu ya ALLAH. ku ingin bertemu dgn KekasihMu..permudahkanlah segala urusan ku ya ALLAH.

wallahua'alam.

To earn, to give it back.

i was refreshing on how tremendous part that we can play if we owned a knowledge. how muslim can change a world if we owned a knowledge that all this while was conquered by the jewish. with knowledge, we can never be fooled by anyone. we will be more respected, and we'll no longer underrated.

in conjunction of current global breaking issues' of Gaza..i try to relate, on how we can conserve our religion's dignity using the power of knowledge. if we own the knowledge, we can go beyond possibilities. we can turn on-paper resolutions and petitions to a REAL actions, ppl!! we'll be at par with the jewish whom all this while being regards as the World Power. thinkg of how their decision and action simply affect the whole world..huh put me on boil.

we'll not concede.

we wont till we fight back for our right. to live this life peacefully and evenly. so ppl, let's educate our future generation. disseminate the prominence of education..how they can change the world, by simply own the knowledge. it's foolish to beleive that our future generation is apathetic on education. no it wont be happend. in the future we'll live in our own making.

The only thing that interferes with my learning is my education.
Albert Einstein

and as for me, to empower a long-life learning. apart that i took ACCA to enhance my knowledge, to be at par with everybody else, especially those in an accounting field..i also make a 'plan' on how to continue learning and to fulfill my brain capacity..ahah :)) jgn jadi Albert Einstein suda..

Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity,
and I'm not sure about the former.
Albert Einstein

i was about to write that i'll be away attending 16days course at PERMATA, Bangi. PETRONAS Induction Programme for new Executives (PIPE). it starts tomorrow morning. and so i wish i'll learn a lot of things by end of the programme. as i usually come back with 'something' from any courses that i'd attended held by PETRONAS. wish me luck! :))

some of the valuable knowledge that i'd earned from some of the courses attended is;

FEAR; False Evidence Appears Real - how we could have conquer our FEAR simply by set those words in our mind. it works for me so many time, indeed!! :))

ROTIBALDEP; Reach Out, Take Initiatives, Be A Learner, and Develop People - this is my favorite. always and always take initiative whenever we're in a situation require us to do somethg. and reach out, dun brush under the carpet whenver u have a query..always remember to learn and know that we are capable to inspire ppl around us.

ther'll a lot more to learn, to endeavour a Better me :))

so guys, anticipate my return with a lot more to share :))

.....i'll b earning for living, just to give it back. to ppl around me, especially my family..n not forgotten, to our brothers at Palestin :'(

wallahua'lam.

A mercy call.

they took their whole life to put up  a bunch of cement and stone on the ground so they can call it as a HOME..but the heartless Zionists only took a minute to vanished'em and turned'em into  a no better disposal site..
water which  used to flow to fulfill their daily need..today had turned into a  row of blood which had broken their hearts..
land which they used to called as their own playground , now had turned them into a  refugees..
a father whom used to  bring their son to school for a learning joy, today had to bring'em to a hospital for a painful treatment..
a girl whom used to smile n joyously live their full-of-dream life, today is crying..mourning..cant barely open their own eyes to witness any more slaughter of life..


do you really care, people??

:'(

where's ur humanity value??

why o why on earth, a heartless Zionists exist..for an absurd mission of killing brothers' life??

It's Thursday. It's Jan 1st 2009. does it makes air any fresher?

it's just another day, isnt it?

famili n i spent a night at Hotel Traders. those who doesnt familiar with the hotel, it's situated right in front of KLCC Twin Towers near to KL Convention Centre. it almost like a tradition in our family because we've spent several times back years either on New Year countdown or on Independence Day of 31st August to stay a night at Hotel Traders just to witness a fireworks performance. very well indeed. haha :P

for this years, as Pak Lah had proclaimed that the government will not spend a lot of money for this time NY celebration by sponsoring a concert or whatsoever due to the economic slowdown and as many economist forecasting a sinking global recession for 2009 (pretty scary, huh?) ..hence, it ended up with only a musical fountain performance, i cud say. i cant think of any right words. mind my english vocabulary spontanous disablity.

splendid. it's all i can say about the fountain performance. since my dad is a somebody in KLCC Holdings Berhad so, we spent much time in the security or main office for the whole function of NY celebration and witnessing the fountain performance in there. just to escape the crowd. however, we cudnt stay much longer, at least until 12o'clock. ges why? it's simply because we cudnt stand the crowd. we left the KLCC surroundings around 11o'clock. and the crowd almost turning to a mob! gagagaga~ one of dad's officer told us that 75% of the crowd is Indonesian. whatla...~ tadak tempat lain ke?



















pom! pom! ther goes how the fireworks set themselves free....~

beautiful.

most of the time..i was "waaaaa...~" and the next time "whoooooaah...~"

ahaha...:))

i didnt joined my other family members enjoying the fireworks in front of Hotel Traders. after the not-so-cool situation happened just before the countdown. dem bloody idiot lif service with whole insert-card thingy. demmit. screwed up my mood. and so i enjoy watching the fireworks from room. with a glassy-widey window, i definitely enjoy the moment though it was all by myself.

the NY celebration end. and so what does the fireworks works fer ya? upfronting ur new year spirit? does it helps you in anyway? huh?

haha..:))

internalize yourself. it's gonna be just another day to go, unless you had something in your grip to either let it go or to hold it on and endeavour a BETTER you.

i have mine :)) and i wish to make it real.

wallahua'lam.