it's the beginning for the end.

selamat sejahtera ke atas kamu.

i've stop putting my thoughts in this blog since last April. it was when i was busy preparing for my wedding. alhamdulillah, 10 January 2011 will be our 7th month being a husband and wife. alhamdulillah :) just for many of us already know, we'll be expecting an offspring inshaAllah by end of March 2011. alhamdulillah...thank you Allah for the blessing :')

au revior 2010.

my life has been evolved much that i can ever imagine in year 2010. from a single lady to a wife and with Allah's willing, i'm now a mother-to-be. being a wife on one side, is another experience of it's own. my responsibility has been incited to another phase. once, i used to make a decision on my own and i know what's best for me. Independence has been my bff when it comes to managing my necessities as well as willing. differently, now it will always about 'us' or 'we'. any decisions will be made for the benefit of 2, and it requires me and my husband to play a lot of toleration. and for myself, my husband knows best. hehe. yeah it was challenging for the first time, but now i'm slowly getting used of it. belajar untuk redha dan bertenang hati untuk kegembiraan bersama. hehe. i can never imagine if it'll be another man to be my husband other than Muhammed Fairus b Ahmad Aripin :)

on another side of coin, carrying a baby (our own baby, mashaAllah :)) is a beautiful experience for me thus far. praise is to Allah swt for my good health condition during pregnancy moon so far. alhamdulillah. no morning sicknesses. except that i've forbidden myself to a certain foods that can cause me sick. thanks to the lil one inside my womb :)

coming to the 7th month of pregnancy, (terserlah kebuntingan pelaminan disitu :P) i cant wait to furnish myself with a preparation for the upcoming newborn :D (tak tipu punye excited ni, mcm nak menangis kegembiraan tiap kali lalu baby store kat iSetan klcc mahu pon JJ =')). at the same time, i'll be signing up to a parentcraft class at Sunmed and breastfeeding counselling at PCMC starting January next year. oh! oh! :)

for ACCA and works

yup. i've carried my baby to examination hall last 2 weeks. and alhamdulillah, it was a better attempt for me than last time :) inshaAllah, doa2 la dimurahkan rezeki baby ye ;)

works seem to be demanding lately. being a sole survivor in the project with a tight dateline by March 2011, and what a lovely coincidence that the dateline is so closed to my pregnancy dateline. hah! mmg sangat ngam. -_-"

okeylah. will continue later. (crossing fingers. haha) sian baby, kena tdo da nih.

surah al-luqman & maryam untuk si kecil. al-fatihah.

wallahua'lam.

The 100th Post.

yup. i've been spinning over the time and actually a lot of thing happened around me. works, family, friends, study, exams, weddings, u name it.

with Allah's willing, in less than 2 months time, i'll be tying the knot to Muhammed Fairus.

dun asked me to story about my wedding prep. i mean, literally things are coping up. well, at least, it's the expectation. behind the scenes? for my own sake, i better leave it to Allah swt. when most bridezillas story about the wedding pressure, the darah manis, and anything around it...most of the time, i didnt get bought.

TAPI, being in the 'shoes' now...frankly speaking, at times, i almost break down and give up. seriously. especially, when everything seems to go against you. and when everything just didnt worked out as it supposed to be. the feeling of frustration is just so hurtful.

alhamdulillah, my fiance is still standing by me. and most importantly, my family.

when ppl are asking " da ready da nak kawen?" or "amacam, nervous tak?"

frankly speaking, i have no answer to that. well, i used not to think too much of the feelings or i can easily freak out. i'm an optimist and find it hard to be an emotional display. heh, and i guess i'm lacking an aptitude. betul tak? yelah, mental torment, anyone? feeling of fearless doesnt makes the feeling of secure. and that's the flaw of an optimist. anyone care to help? nonetheless, i can also be so emotional and at the same time heartless. hahahahahaha...anyway, who can be better me? :P

we were finalizing the guests list this afternoon. and looking at the wedding invitations, i was like "ommmmai, i am so getting married. i for real is getting married!!! dup dap dup dap dup dap dup dap" X|

am i there yet?

please. answer this for me. X?

last week, a friend of mine asked me about marriage. and i, in a clueless mind answered, marriage is a responsibility. come to think of it, yup, it is about responsibility and trust. it is not much about love and what more sehidup semati, kan?

love is like a plant. it started with a seed. with a proper soil, water and sun, it will grow beautifully and gets flower and even fruits.

so, if you were arranged by a marriage, fret not. pray. and asked a guidance from Allah swt. u can grow love, and it's even sweeter to be in love after the marriage, kan? awww~ PROVIDED the partner must know his/her responsibility and get each others' trust, right? (oh tibe2 boleh jadi Dr Love, kan? should i consider a part-time job?hmm...hahaha :P)

anyway, it's 12.30 am and heck what i'm doing in front of the lappy still?

it's MONDAY.

what can be more exciting than going to work tomorrow?

duhh. -_-"

till then,

wallahua'lam.

berkulat.

aish.

me bad.

kadang-kadang terpikir nak tutup je blog ni.

sbb tak dapat apdet.

sorry guys, iPhone is coming later.

haha.

06 works

yes! i finally found my wedding song - i mean, for the video journals :)

it's still on the shortlisting, but i'm completely fell in love with this song! *winks*

sekian dahulu.

wassalam.

let's see...

i know i've been delaying to update my blog. me bad. me bad.

not that i've nothing to scribble about, the fact that i'm tooo lazy! yeah admit it. i'm getting the blog title to become more and more factual. serve me right.

i've been delaying to post about my 1431H resolutions since Muharram 1st. well, allow me to just add another resolution of No Procrastination No More in 2010! hais. piap skali kat b****t bru tau. ops! :P

i've achieved 3 over 4 resolutions for 1430H last year which are:

1. I am now no more growing grapes (like ppl used to name it that way :P) and proudly earning for living so as to help my family and I (of course! haha)

2. I am now no more a girlfriend to a lover but a fiancee to a wonderful fiance :))

3. I am now no more merely a beneficiary yet proudly a contributor to my household...me likey! :))

yeah i have another resolution that i've been bringing forward since born (u bet!) and it was to become less furious...and be more considerate and a forgiver. (awatla ssh sgt T_T)

and so! here are my resolutions for next year;

1. To become a wife or an official lifetime partner (hehe!) to my dear fiance, Muhammed Fairus :))

2. To passed at least 2 papers for next 2 sitting and let another 3 papers to go for 2011! ho yeah!

3. To be more diligent (oh intelligent as well!) in my job. in the SSC project particularly. oh can i be more specific? i want 2 for my PPA. sekian. lol. boleh ke? :P

4. To be more mindful with everything? everybody! how i wish i can do something on my scatterbrained T_T

5. oh please, No Procrastination No More! oceyh? T_T

6. lastly, the bf resolution since born - to be a noble forgiver. hoho!

if i can achieve at least half of the resolutions above, o i'm gonna be so proud of myself! wuhu!:P well, the No.1 is a no compromise resolution okai?! u better not! :P

till then,

i have a long agenda with fiance today. after Solat Jumaat. Hantaran Hunt. <-- i'm so excited! shopping kan? it's a retail therapy, ladies!:P

wallahua'alam.