yup. i've been spinning over the time and actually a lot of thing happened around me. works, family, friends, study, exams, weddings, u name it.
with Allah's willing, in less than 2 months time, i'll be tying the knot to Muhammed Fairus.
dun asked me to story about my wedding prep. i mean, literally things are coping up. well, at least, it's the expectation. behind the scenes? for my own sake, i better leave it to Allah swt. when most bridezillas story about the wedding pressure, the darah manis, and anything around it...most of the time, i didnt get bought.
TAPI, being in the 'shoes' now...frankly speaking, at times, i almost break down and give up. seriously. especially, when everything seems to go against you. and when everything just didnt worked out as it supposed to be. the feeling of frustration is just so hurtful.
alhamdulillah, my fiance is still standing by me. and most importantly, my family.
when ppl are asking " da ready da nak kawen?" or "amacam, nervous tak?"
frankly speaking, i have no answer to that. well, i used not to think too much of the feelings or i can easily freak out. i'm an optimist and find it hard to be an emotional display. heh, and i guess i'm lacking an aptitude. betul tak? yelah, mental torment, anyone? feeling of fearless doesnt makes the feeling of secure. and that's the flaw of an optimist. anyone care to help? nonetheless, i can also be so emotional and at the same time heartless. hahahahahaha...anyway, who can be better me? :P
we were finalizing the guests list this afternoon. and looking at the wedding invitations, i was like "ommmmai, i am so getting married. i for real is getting married!!! dup dap dup dap dup dap dup dap" X|
am i there yet?
please. answer this for me. X?
last week, a friend of mine asked me about marriage. and i, in a clueless mind answered, marriage is a responsibility. come to think of it, yup, it is about responsibility and trust. it is not much about love and what more sehidup semati, kan?
love is like a plant. it started with a seed. with a proper soil, water and sun, it will grow beautifully and gets flower and even fruits.
so, if you were arranged by a marriage, fret not. pray. and asked a guidance from Allah swt. u can grow love, and it's even sweeter to be in love after the marriage, kan? awww~ PROVIDED the partner must know his/her responsibility and get each others' trust, right? (oh tibe2 boleh jadi Dr Love, kan? should i consider a part-time job?hmm...hahaha :P)
anyway, it's 12.30 am and heck what i'm doing in front of the lappy still?
it's MONDAY.
what can be more exciting than going to work tomorrow?
duhh. -_-"
till then,
wallahua'lam.
