The 100th Post.

yup. i've been spinning over the time and actually a lot of thing happened around me. works, family, friends, study, exams, weddings, u name it.

with Allah's willing, in less than 2 months time, i'll be tying the knot to Muhammed Fairus.

dun asked me to story about my wedding prep. i mean, literally things are coping up. well, at least, it's the expectation. behind the scenes? for my own sake, i better leave it to Allah swt. when most bridezillas story about the wedding pressure, the darah manis, and anything around it...most of the time, i didnt get bought.

TAPI, being in the 'shoes' now...frankly speaking, at times, i almost break down and give up. seriously. especially, when everything seems to go against you. and when everything just didnt worked out as it supposed to be. the feeling of frustration is just so hurtful.

alhamdulillah, my fiance is still standing by me. and most importantly, my family.

when ppl are asking " da ready da nak kawen?" or "amacam, nervous tak?"

frankly speaking, i have no answer to that. well, i used not to think too much of the feelings or i can easily freak out. i'm an optimist and find it hard to be an emotional display. heh, and i guess i'm lacking an aptitude. betul tak? yelah, mental torment, anyone? feeling of fearless doesnt makes the feeling of secure. and that's the flaw of an optimist. anyone care to help? nonetheless, i can also be so emotional and at the same time heartless. hahahahahaha...anyway, who can be better me? :P

we were finalizing the guests list this afternoon. and looking at the wedding invitations, i was like "ommmmai, i am so getting married. i for real is getting married!!! dup dap dup dap dup dap dup dap" X|

am i there yet?

please. answer this for me. X?

last week, a friend of mine asked me about marriage. and i, in a clueless mind answered, marriage is a responsibility. come to think of it, yup, it is about responsibility and trust. it is not much about love and what more sehidup semati, kan?

love is like a plant. it started with a seed. with a proper soil, water and sun, it will grow beautifully and gets flower and even fruits.

so, if you were arranged by a marriage, fret not. pray. and asked a guidance from Allah swt. u can grow love, and it's even sweeter to be in love after the marriage, kan? awww~ PROVIDED the partner must know his/her responsibility and get each others' trust, right? (oh tibe2 boleh jadi Dr Love, kan? should i consider a part-time job?hmm...hahaha :P)

anyway, it's 12.30 am and heck what i'm doing in front of the lappy still?

it's MONDAY.

what can be more exciting than going to work tomorrow?

duhh. -_-"

till then,

wallahua'lam.

06 works

yes! i finally found my wedding song - i mean, for the video journals :)

it's still on the shortlisting, but i'm completely fell in love with this song! *winks*

sekian dahulu.

wassalam.

let's see...

i know i've been delaying to update my blog. me bad. me bad.

not that i've nothing to scribble about, the fact that i'm tooo lazy! yeah admit it. i'm getting the blog title to become more and more factual. serve me right.

i've been delaying to post about my 1431H resolutions since Muharram 1st. well, allow me to just add another resolution of No Procrastination No More in 2010! hais. piap skali kat b****t bru tau. ops! :P

i've achieved 3 over 4 resolutions for 1430H last year which are:

1. I am now no more growing grapes (like ppl used to name it that way :P) and proudly earning for living so as to help my family and I (of course! haha)

2. I am now no more a girlfriend to a lover but a fiancee to a wonderful fiance :))

3. I am now no more merely a beneficiary yet proudly a contributor to my household...me likey! :))

yeah i have another resolution that i've been bringing forward since born (u bet!) and it was to become less furious...and be more considerate and a forgiver. (awatla ssh sgt T_T)

and so! here are my resolutions for next year;

1. To become a wife or an official lifetime partner (hehe!) to my dear fiance, Muhammed Fairus :))

2. To passed at least 2 papers for next 2 sitting and let another 3 papers to go for 2011! ho yeah!

3. To be more diligent (oh intelligent as well!) in my job. in the SSC project particularly. oh can i be more specific? i want 2 for my PPA. sekian. lol. boleh ke? :P

4. To be more mindful with everything? everybody! how i wish i can do something on my scatterbrained T_T

5. oh please, No Procrastination No More! oceyh? T_T

6. lastly, the bf resolution since born - to be a noble forgiver. hoho!

if i can achieve at least half of the resolutions above, o i'm gonna be so proud of myself! wuhu!:P well, the No.1 is a no compromise resolution okai?! u better not! :P

till then,

i have a long agenda with fiance today. after Solat Jumaat. Hantaran Hunt. <-- i'm so excited! shopping kan? it's a retail therapy, ladies!:P

wallahua'alam.

semakin dekat semakin sukar

9hb & 15hb Dec dah semakin dekat.

berhempas-pulas mencuri masa dicelah-celah kesibukan kerja untuk mengulang kaji pelajaran.

oh bukan mengulang kaji. dah tak sempat. membuat latihan, latihan dan latihan. sehingga letihan.

bercakap tentang latihan, latihan kebakaran tanggal 18hb yang lalu sememangnye memberi kesan yg sangat MENDALAM.

56 tingkat ke bawah bukan suatu mainan kawan-kawan!

kaki sehingga hari ni masih sakit. biasa mengambil masa 5 saat untuk turun tangga. kini berminit-minit!

semalam temujanji dgn doktor gigi.

maka bermula lah episod tarik-menarik. sakit! sudah lama ditinggal sakit ni sejak Februari lepas. kini batang sayur bayam tidak lagi boleh digigit.

sakitnya berdenyut ke kepala.

jadual belajar hari ini terganggu kerana sakit-sakit ni. SAKIT.

keadaan semakin sukar.

kerja, semakin dekat dengan tarikh cuti peperiksaan, semakin banyak. semuanya menguji kesabaran dan kewibawaan.

mengeluh, jangan.

disempurnakan segalanya dgn sebaik yang mungkin. tempat kerja kini sudah bukan lagi menjadi tempat yang selesa.

dan kesimpulannya aidiladha akan di sambut sepi kerana mak ayah bulat hati mahu pulang ke kampung awal. cuti, tidak boleh.

air mata..menitis, jangan.

kesukaran ini pasti berbayar. pasti. pasti.

wallahua'lam.

betul-betul sebulan

o yeahh~ i had a shitty week. badan lembik macam tilam toto yg boleh dilipat-lipat, dihenyak-henyak.

i'm in the revision mode beginning last saturday till yesterday. gosh i'm so glad the week is finally over. no the exam is not over yet tho. out as early as 7am n got home as late as 10.15pm. @_@

since i'll be attempting 2 papers this coming dec sitting, therfore i hv to put extra-nescafe-sugar efforts towards the exam preparation. and as far as the revision goes, i think i'm still in the avenue towards facing the examination. alhamdulillah. thanks to the tutors.

this few weeks has been difficult for me. at times, i tend to be skeptical and lost my rationale. i've been whimpering and complaining over everything. work wise as well as study. astaghfirullahalazim. naudzubillah. T_T

i didnt realize that i was blessed with so many things that other ppl could hv been struggling for it.

Frustration is your worst enemy, for it has the power to destroy peace of mind

so true.

keeping a positive mind and open mind seem to be easier said than done. but it's actually effortless given that you have faith in Allah swt. as i was reading some articles written by Dr. A'id Al-Qarni, regretting past failures and weeping bitterly for calamity are manifestations of disbelief in Allah swt and discontent with what He has decreed. naudzubillah :( O Allah swt, let not my heart deviate from the truth after You have guided us...

i shall be thankful. alhamdulillah...alhamdulillah...for bitterly situations i had, for it is a sign that He wants me to keep the remembrance of Him.

30 days to go for the 2nd war.

and i shall whack the examiners this time around. and win the world-prize. dream on! haha. it's utter far reaching. pass sudah :P

wallahua'lam.

i've got nothing to say

tik tok tik tok!!

the clock is ticking. n time flew as fast as a wind blow.

now, month is coming to the eleventh.

phewwww...----

eleventh month so much tentatively packed with works and revision classes and courses and workshops.

...till the twelve month's event impending with slight preparation. haih haih. !*

fret not, fret not sisters. ada masa lagi. ada masa lagi. hais celah mane tah masa yang ada lagi tuh!

the crack of dawn shall be the alternative for me to accelerate the pending study. hais bad girl. bad girl.

till then...i've got nothing to say, except..

..except that Allah wills. Surely He knows the manifest and the hidden.And He will gradually make your path easy for you.Therefore go on reminding, surely the reminder benefits (them)...

Surah Al-A'la:7-9

wallahua'lam

it has been a while now

alhamdulillah...

alhamdulillah...

praise be to Allah swt...

:))

will be counting days now.

but not so soon. :P

final reflection

insha'Allah, we will be celebrating 1st of Shawal in less than 2 days. time flew as fast as a blink of eyes, and ramadhan has come to an end. feeling joyous to go back to hometown celebrating eid mubarak in spite, deep down somehow my heart's feeling weighty leaving ramadhan...

i know not my ibadah suffice ramadhan's blessing. moreover, will there be another chance to meet the next ramadhan. nauzubillahiminzalik...

o ALLAH, on this day, make my fasts worthy of appreciation and acceptance, according to what pleases You, and pleases the messanger. O the best of those who hear, wash away my sins, purify me from all flaws, examine my heart with the piety of the hearts...Praise be to ALLAH, the Lord of the worlds..
ameeeenn...

my family and siblings,
my other half,
my cousins,
my best friends (u know who u are),
my friends,
my cyber friends,
and utmostly...my ones-whom-despise-me :))

in the midst of anticipation to celebrate Eid mubarak, allow me to seek forgiveness for any offenses, physically or otherwise, purposely or unintentionally through unto u...sahla mmg aku ni kdg2 menyakitkan hati.wah mengaku!hehe. 

may everyone had a blast one. notwithstanding remembering our other Muslim brothers and sisters whom had a tough time and calamity around the worlds. may our zakat al-fitr channeled to them as it should be, inshaAllah. korg da bayar zakat belum??

lastly, nak siap2 masuk baju dalam beg. balik kampung. yippppie!! of graduating Ramadhan Class of 1430H (hehe!!!) i pray that Allah, my Lord the Most Merciful will continue to bless me with strength, willpower (deadline sebelum raya.semalam.huh) and determination that i had during Ramadhan..

Eid Mubarak.
Kullu 'am wa antum bikhair (May u be well thru out the year)
Taqabalallahu minna wa minkum (May Allah accept it from u and from us)

wallahua'lam.

One step ahead...

alhamdulillah..syukur ya Allah ",

majlis kecil tadi berakhir dengan perasaan gembira dan tenang terpancar pd wajah masing-masing

walau kalut dan gementar, dan semesti kami tak dapat lari yang merupakan kali pertama

terima kasih, semua

ia sempurna dengan adanya kalian

*hugss*

11 Oktober 2009

ku nantikan ",

traGedI oktObeR

oh Oh!

*floundering around*

+ve vibes

Dear diary…

Today I had a good day :) few days back was a bit gloomy for me. I was emotional and sad. And of course, of all factors that you might think of the reason why I was behaving that way…it must hv got to do with me n my other half…kann? Ya right.

What else could affect you so much other than your love and intimate life?

I always know that he’s the one for me. We fought, we hated each other till I feel like to hit *dush dush* him, (neither him nor I in actual fact would dare huh? cakap besar ta hengat..hehe :P) however the Love between us is stronger than the former, and that what makes us still together today. anyway it's the passion that made us felt that way, isnt it? :) Love what makes human unsound. Nevertheless, we learnt from mistakes and became the same person with a better (or another insanity?) fi’il everyday..hehe :P

I know ive always be the same me as 10 years back ppl know me..sensitive and weepy. Okay,tell u a secret *membuka pekung di dada* I was, now da tak lah..hehe..whenever I want a haircut either by my mom or went to a salon..tho it was clearly by my intention, I always always always ended up with a tears. Haha go and laugh at me. but yup I’m not making it up. It’s true. Last time is when I was in form 4. I’m not sure myself, why must I cry every time I see my hair being cut. Ya it was rather a sentiment. keh keh.

kakak kamu kan…takkan tak kenal, dari kecik gunting rambut je menangis…pasaipa taktau

-mak

I’ve grown up and I cried less. Hmmm…less could be more for certain ppl bcoz I cried like real a LOT, right? Haha. Like simply every time tgk cite Hindustan, I MUST hold a pillow…a trick indeed, to sorok muka bile hidung da berair. (Haha i know it wasnt only me, dun pura-pura ya guys.) It was melancholy or…rather pathetic? whatever. you tell me :)

6 days off from last Wednesday purposely for ACCA preps is I dun know, enough…but I wish I could hv more! Hehe! The examination is on June 3rd. since it’ll be my first attempt on ACCA, cuak is a must la kan. *gasp*. Okay okay, ther’ll be only a +ve ion in me by now. Let’s be professional, and get it over with. Fighto-o!

Tomorrow, the long wait has come to an end. (Eceh cam mysterious gile. haha gelabah! :D) After nearly 6 months of not seeing each other, tomorrow my other half and I will meet up. He’ll have a serious discussion with my father bout the ‘plan’. *muka serious -_-!*

We shall see the outcome tomorrow ye me fellas :)

p/s I know, at thz momeny ayie and aleng must be so full of nervous for their BIG day tomorrow (engaged) and the day after tomorrow (tie the knot!). All the best and may happiness will come along ur way. insyaAllah, I knew you guys will be a great parents for ur coming offspring (lagi ta bley blah, blum ape2 lagi da berangan anak org) . aleng has been my childhood friend, and ayie is my MH mates…hmmm…since we’re having an economic downturn now ya guys, I shall confirm my attendance to ayie’s place :P

jap. what does my attendance has got to do with the economic downturn anyway? cet. haha mcmlah dtg kenduri bwk hadiah. pewut. pewut yg penting.

chiao.

wallahua’lam.

will i end strong?

lately I had something that keeps on bugging me.

it’s trivial, but enough to make me weedy.

will I end strong?

when everything and everybody appear to be against me.

*sigh*

somehow rather, I better leave and go for a place that would make me pleased.

never at once, I ever felt appreciated for things that I done. I guess they dun know how to appreciate a talent like me, do they? No I didn’t mean to flatter myself. what I was trying to say is that, I’m a newbie and they could’ve realized the possibilty of igniting the potential in me and everybody else of the same level with me.

at times, they tend to misunderstand me. simply because they dun wanna hear me. my judgement will only be relevant subject to their gibberish swinging mood. gender issues, guys. gender issues * ouhh how I wish I’m not a female*

yeah......that’s life. it meant to be unfair. life never conceived to be a place that would satisfy us.

however, i'm still grateful that apart of that ppl who seems very pessimist on me...ther's still a few ppl whom able to recognize my potential, whom willing to give me a helping hands :)

i guess i need to see my mentor. i really need somebody to consult me, to make me feel better.

wallahua'lam.

To where i am belong

Currently I'm in mobile. After 3 months attached to Group Accounts & Service Department, yesterday was my official day being transferred to where the first day I was supposed to be. IFSSC Project. Therefore right now, I'll be a full-time team member of IFSSC Project in which will took 3 years until the system go live.

I can't say much about the project yet. As far as I concerned, it'll include much of my knowledge and experience in Project Management (in which I'm a Certified e-Business Professional in Project Management by name, in life? Haven't been assessed yet as the certificate that I owned was came from attending 1 month +++ course) and my finance and treasury knowledge (in which two of the papers that I hatred most back in my university). See how demanding it'll be? Gosh.

Doing things you dun like, is growing up.

Yeah I've grown up much. (and then why am I still shorter, and getting skinnier?) *sigh*

Audit? Finance? Treasury?

I'll never get a chance to experience Taxation, the area that i LOOOOOVE most.

Woop..one more thing!!

The department in where I am temporarily placed now (Group Treasury) before going to the IFSSC Project Office, the ppl here was just waaaaaaaaaaay too kind! They were really cooperative and explaining everything about IFSSC thing to me, without me asking for it. Ohhh~ that's verry thoughtful of them. The environment is totally contrary from where I came from.

*grinning*

Counting the black sheeps, in the family.

i should hv been sleeping by now.

i dun know what i'm doing.

must be the coffee ice.

kodi betul.

Somebody please pinch me

Yeah

feel like ages since my last post.

tell you what. i'm doing good with my working life. it sucks sometimes, tho. but i'm more grateful for what i've earned to date. experience, knowledge, friends and of course my pay *grinning* hehehe

another thing,

i'm now spinning over time for my first upcoming ACCA attempt. June 3rd,to be precise. my o my. now i know the bitter of studying while working. it's far demanding when you got to push yourself to wake up early in the morning. okkay it's 4am. simply because that's the only time that i'm free-of-any-thing-&-thought to like really open-&-study up my revision books. to study on the late night?? forget bout that. i'm even fell asleep early night. to study on weekends? well basically the class is on weekends. the study goes with the letcurer lah, kan. not to mention the wedding receptions, friends engagement and what-not that i'd to attend aloooong this year. adooih. so that's basically all what makes up to the grounds of the above matter. to study in the early morning. i mean like, REALLY early.

i miss you guys.

all of you.

wallahua'lam.

It's Thursday. It's Jan 1st 2009. does it makes air any fresher?

it's just another day, isnt it?

famili n i spent a night at Hotel Traders. those who doesnt familiar with the hotel, it's situated right in front of KLCC Twin Towers near to KL Convention Centre. it almost like a tradition in our family because we've spent several times back years either on New Year countdown or on Independence Day of 31st August to stay a night at Hotel Traders just to witness a fireworks performance. very well indeed. haha :P

for this years, as Pak Lah had proclaimed that the government will not spend a lot of money for this time NY celebration by sponsoring a concert or whatsoever due to the economic slowdown and as many economist forecasting a sinking global recession for 2009 (pretty scary, huh?) ..hence, it ended up with only a musical fountain performance, i cud say. i cant think of any right words. mind my english vocabulary spontanous disablity.

splendid. it's all i can say about the fountain performance. since my dad is a somebody in KLCC Holdings Berhad so, we spent much time in the security or main office for the whole function of NY celebration and witnessing the fountain performance in there. just to escape the crowd. however, we cudnt stay much longer, at least until 12o'clock. ges why? it's simply because we cudnt stand the crowd. we left the KLCC surroundings around 11o'clock. and the crowd almost turning to a mob! gagagaga~ one of dad's officer told us that 75% of the crowd is Indonesian. whatla...~ tadak tempat lain ke?



















pom! pom! ther goes how the fireworks set themselves free....~

beautiful.

most of the time..i was "waaaaa...~" and the next time "whoooooaah...~"

ahaha...:))

i didnt joined my other family members enjoying the fireworks in front of Hotel Traders. after the not-so-cool situation happened just before the countdown. dem bloody idiot lif service with whole insert-card thingy. demmit. screwed up my mood. and so i enjoy watching the fireworks from room. with a glassy-widey window, i definitely enjoy the moment though it was all by myself.

the NY celebration end. and so what does the fireworks works fer ya? upfronting ur new year spirit? does it helps you in anyway? huh?

haha..:))

internalize yourself. it's gonna be just another day to go, unless you had something in your grip to either let it go or to hold it on and endeavour a BETTER you.

i have mine :)) and i wish to make it real.

wallahua'lam.

A note to myself.

and this is the 4th time i changed my blog template. :)) did they tell u anythng? hehe and i wish, this is the final one.

welcome.

have a pleasent viewing.

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i've decided to make my blog less personal, and more to global aspects.

:))

wallahua'alam.

Gripping and thankful.

Previously, i'd informed that i'll be having a phone interview sort of with the manager that want me in to his department right?..however, it turned to an interview. indeed!!

it's informal, a chit-chat sorta. he wanted to know me more before signing the offer letter to be given to me, perhaps. i dun asked much.

I received a call yesterday while i was still at Kelantan n we're bout goin back to KL. The call was from a person incharge in recruiting department of IBU, Intenational Business Unit. IBU is an operating unit under PET. The person whom has been contacting me informing me that the GM of IBU wanted to meet me tomorrow, which is today. n i was shivering, cant basically think rational what is the best time for me to meet him considering that i'm still on my way back to KL. n i say "cool!" hah here i go again, whatta stupid opt i had made. i cud have tell her that i'm currently at Kelantan n will be able to meet up on Wednesday, cudnt i?

Therefore, today with an inadequte sleep and rest, (after a long journey from Kelantan and arrived KL approximately on 11pm) slothing to Level 45, Tower 1, KLCC. Considering that one shall be arriving at the interview place at least 30 minutes before the interview, and so i am late. I arrived there approximtely on 10am. sharp. My dad has been reminding me to be there as early as possible, but i'd contravened the reminder. by chance, yes by chance indeed! huhu..geramnye! bile pikir balik. back to the day i went to meet The GM of IBU. and so i arrived there, there was a man known as En Yus accidentally crossing by the entry door greeting me by saying "O you must be Raja Aini..we were talking bout you just now. how are you?" we shook hands and exchanging smile. and immediately my hands and legs got icy. my o my. what kind of situation will i be facing now...? oh~

In the GM room, waiting there is the GM itself and a fine lady. hence, there were 3 person interviewing me. and u know? i was playing the so-typical of me along the interview session! clumsy, impolite, bad-hearing skill (keep asking.."come again, sir?" adoiyai~), lack of business ethics (yet i scored A tau for that BE subject back in UM! buang je dlm tong sampah!) ya Allah~ if i were to remember back my tongue, hands, gestures on that day..i cud have sworn, i killed myself for acting that way. grrr!

The GM was asking me bout my field of interest, and i told them, it is an accounting of course. as you can refer to my degree, i've been awarded a BAcc (hons) UM. and i told them again i've registered myself to ACCA to pursue myself to a professional level. then they get shocked somehow listening to my statement. and i was gripping, "did i say something wrong?" the GM smiled and told me that "here in IBU, we dun count beans. we are a business unit. and our operation is 100% corporate planning and business affairs. do you find it okay, to be here? ur skills group will be wasted" there goes the first soalan cepumas. adoiyai~ and i answered,

" being a CA has been my dream and i was about to make it real. however, i took ACCA as a part-time, and part of my long-life learning thus, i'll adjust myself accordingly. i mean, according to my job. besides, once i registered to ACCA, i can always took the tuition class at anytime and anywhere as long as when the exam comes, u sit. yada yada.."

and they seem contemplating. pondering, whether i'm the right candidate to join them. referring to my CV, the GM told me that apart from my CGPA, they are impressed knowing that i was active in Silat Cekak, Kompang, Kayaking and 4 languages that i owned; with an additional of Arabic and French. the GM told me that, to be part of IBU, first, u must be funny (haha..), know how to dance poco-poco (haha lagi..seriously they are an easy-going ppl sbnrnye. tp aku je yg terlebih cuak), well-rounded, multi-tasking and most imprtantly own a leadership skill. however due to my accounting field of interest, he was contemplating to put me there.

after the not-so-short conversation with them, the GM decided to set me an appointment with Pn Rasyidah, the GM of Finance Group Division. however due to packed-schedule that Pn Rasyidah had today..he promised me to arrange it later. soon.

ho-humm..and yet my job placement isn't confirmed. got another meet-up. and i swear, i want to put an end to this ambiguity as soon as i meet Pn Rasyidah later.

till then,

wallahua'lam.

..and my journey to CA has just begun.

My life has just went through a huge paradigm shift and things are never going be the same, humm. from a full-time painstaking student of BAcc UM, to a full-time housekeeper, being part of the contributors to an unemployment rate (haha so proud of it) and now, alhamdulillah i'm officially a part-time ACCA student. alhamdulillah i'm finally on track to CA. and i'll hardly saving my breath till i get the CA title. at least 3 years from now. it has never been easy ppl. however, that's the price that u've to pay for the pleasure u'll earned at the end of the day. the backbreaking's worth it.

u see..when ppl say life is like a rolling wheel. sometime u r at the top and the next time u r at the bottom. they are true. ergo, no matter how horrible situation are for you, always try hard to look at the bright side of it.

as in me, i've been at the lowest level of my life for the last 6 months. i was lamenting myself for not earning for living. every day n night. i cried a river everytime i realized how incapable i am, helpless in making an effort to secure a verdict for my career trek.

nevertheless, time heals all wounds. and now, i'm stronger than i ever be. no more ambiguity in navigating my life to where i want it to be. it's certain. thanks to you my friends and family for being supportive all this while. no more weep and wail.

i've been receiving calls from HR Pet regarding of my job placement. alhamdulillah. it's a good sign. i'll be expecting a call from the manager who wanted me in to his/her department. phone interview sort of. i've been asked about location preferability from the HR officer whom has been contacting me. and i told her it's not a problem, indeed. haha. as if i could, then i would say i want it to be near to my home :)) haha. hence, expecting a call from the manager itself has been intriguing me day and night..and now, asked a location preferability freezes my hands and legs. my o my. what if, i've been placed to somewhere across the state? across the sea? huhuhuh~

any how, i'm more than contented to know the progress of my job placement so far.

well guys, i'll be updating soon. tomorrow i'll be heading to my granny's hometown.

:))

wallahua'lam.

Cerita satu malam.

Malam 1

malam yang gelap. sunyi. pukul 11pm. dok sorang2 nih terasa cam cepat mengantuk, tapi mata sperti menolak untuk lelap. tv tutup. lampu tutup. aktifkan sistem sekuriti rumah. 10 minit terlena, alarm sekuriti rumah berbunyi. terkejut. mata terus membulat. hah? kenapa? lama betul berbunyi. perasaan da bercampur baur tatau nak buat ape. selimut digenggam rapat. berpeluh. mata dpejam. mimpi ke? terus telefon ayah yang masih lagi dlm perjalanan ke Kelantan. da lepas Gua Musang. ayah kata ADT security baru lepas call ayah tadi. ada open zone, di Zone 3. Zone 3? kat mane? yg selalu bg masalah sensor, Zone 4, tingkap bilik study. tp Zone 3 kat mane? ayah kata pintu dapur. hah? airmata terus mengalir. takut. nak buat ape ni...? ayah kata jgn kaget..selawat byk2 mudah-mudahan tade ape2. mungkin Garfield, kucing. aku takut. ya Allah..terasa lemah sungguh hati ni. ayah telefon polis, suruh polis dtg jenguk. sejurus selepas tu, polis datang. dan aku memberanikan diri turun ke bawah. buka pintu. buka pagar. ada kereta polis, 2 orang, kereta bersiren, berlampu suluh. polis minta masuk nak check kat dapur. tade ape2. cuma pintu gril terbuka. polis tanye, gril tu mmg terbuka ke? aku kata aku tak check sebelum pasang alarm td. fikir ayah da kuncikan sebelum bertolak balik kelantan petang tu. polis kata tade apa2. sebelum tu ada soal jawab. tanya nama, umur, kenapa duk umah sorg2. pening. pening nak jawab. tapi nasib baik polis-polis tu kacak. teruja sikit.(:P)

selesai, aku kembali tidur. cuba untuk melelapkan mata. pukul 1 pagi cik ngah yg duduk d Putrajaya call, ckp ada depan rumah. ayah call untuk teman aku tidur dirumah. bersyukur. gembira. ada teman. tp serba-salah juga. macam menyusahkan. tp cik ngah kata takpe. keselamatan harus diutamakan.

lena.

pagi esoknya yang cerah. secerah perasaan ini. dan cik ngah pulang pukul 10 pagi. sambil berpesan, kalau ada apa2, call.

terkenang2 abang polis kacak yang segak. :P incek Fairus kate kacaklah, sbb mereka tu polis pancaragam sbnrnye. heh. ade ke. cemburu aku kata abg polis tu lebih kacak dr nya. :P

terima kasih abg polis kacak.

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Malam 2

ayah call petang nya kata ta dapat tiket flight balik isnin malam. bas pun takde. hanya ada flight 6.30 pagi esoknya. hati bersedih. macam mane ni? ayah kata ajak la kawan teman. dan mira bersetuju untuk teman. gembira. sangat. ada teman, yey!

terima kasih mira cantik.

nnt-nnt, boleh bermalam drumah ku lagi ye. :))

p/s Takziah pd sahabatku Siti Nurfareha M Nor atas pemergian ibunya. melawatnya d Klang smlm, menyentuh hati. eha, kamu mmg kuat. kalau rindukan ibu kamu, cepat2 sedekah kan Yasin untuknya ye. moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat, dan ditempatkan bersama2 org yg beriman. kalau kamu ada apa2, jgn segan2 bgtahu aku ye..jgn segan2. kalau kamu segan, siap lah kamu. jaga diri. semuanya ada hikmah. percayalah. ha lagi satu..ingat2 wasiat terakhir ibumu tuh :))