+ve vibes

Dear diary…

Today I had a good day :) few days back was a bit gloomy for me. I was emotional and sad. And of course, of all factors that you might think of the reason why I was behaving that way…it must hv got to do with me n my other half…kann? Ya right.

What else could affect you so much other than your love and intimate life?

I always know that he’s the one for me. We fought, we hated each other till I feel like to hit *dush dush* him, (neither him nor I in actual fact would dare huh? cakap besar ta hengat..hehe :P) however the Love between us is stronger than the former, and that what makes us still together today. anyway it's the passion that made us felt that way, isnt it? :) Love what makes human unsound. Nevertheless, we learnt from mistakes and became the same person with a better (or another insanity?) fi’il everyday..hehe :P

I know ive always be the same me as 10 years back ppl know me..sensitive and weepy. Okay,tell u a secret *membuka pekung di dada* I was, now da tak lah..hehe..whenever I want a haircut either by my mom or went to a salon..tho it was clearly by my intention, I always always always ended up with a tears. Haha go and laugh at me. but yup I’m not making it up. It’s true. Last time is when I was in form 4. I’m not sure myself, why must I cry every time I see my hair being cut. Ya it was rather a sentiment. keh keh.

kakak kamu kan…takkan tak kenal, dari kecik gunting rambut je menangis…pasaipa taktau

-mak

I’ve grown up and I cried less. Hmmm…less could be more for certain ppl bcoz I cried like real a LOT, right? Haha. Like simply every time tgk cite Hindustan, I MUST hold a pillow…a trick indeed, to sorok muka bile hidung da berair. (Haha i know it wasnt only me, dun pura-pura ya guys.) It was melancholy or…rather pathetic? whatever. you tell me :)

6 days off from last Wednesday purposely for ACCA preps is I dun know, enough…but I wish I could hv more! Hehe! The examination is on June 3rd. since it’ll be my first attempt on ACCA, cuak is a must la kan. *gasp*. Okay okay, ther’ll be only a +ve ion in me by now. Let’s be professional, and get it over with. Fighto-o!

Tomorrow, the long wait has come to an end. (Eceh cam mysterious gile. haha gelabah! :D) After nearly 6 months of not seeing each other, tomorrow my other half and I will meet up. He’ll have a serious discussion with my father bout the ‘plan’. *muka serious -_-!*

We shall see the outcome tomorrow ye me fellas :)

p/s I know, at thz momeny ayie and aleng must be so full of nervous for their BIG day tomorrow (engaged) and the day after tomorrow (tie the knot!). All the best and may happiness will come along ur way. insyaAllah, I knew you guys will be a great parents for ur coming offspring (lagi ta bley blah, blum ape2 lagi da berangan anak org) . aleng has been my childhood friend, and ayie is my MH mates…hmmm…since we’re having an economic downturn now ya guys, I shall confirm my attendance to ayie’s place :P

jap. what does my attendance has got to do with the economic downturn anyway? cet. haha mcmlah dtg kenduri bwk hadiah. pewut. pewut yg penting.

chiao.

wallahua’lam.

will i end strong?

lately I had something that keeps on bugging me.

it’s trivial, but enough to make me weedy.

will I end strong?

when everything and everybody appear to be against me.

*sigh*

somehow rather, I better leave and go for a place that would make me pleased.

never at once, I ever felt appreciated for things that I done. I guess they dun know how to appreciate a talent like me, do they? No I didn’t mean to flatter myself. what I was trying to say is that, I’m a newbie and they could’ve realized the possibilty of igniting the potential in me and everybody else of the same level with me.

at times, they tend to misunderstand me. simply because they dun wanna hear me. my judgement will only be relevant subject to their gibberish swinging mood. gender issues, guys. gender issues * ouhh how I wish I’m not a female*

yeah......that’s life. it meant to be unfair. life never conceived to be a place that would satisfy us.

however, i'm still grateful that apart of that ppl who seems very pessimist on me...ther's still a few ppl whom able to recognize my potential, whom willing to give me a helping hands :)

i guess i need to see my mentor. i really need somebody to consult me, to make me feel better.

wallahua'lam.

To where i am belong

Currently I'm in mobile. After 3 months attached to Group Accounts & Service Department, yesterday was my official day being transferred to where the first day I was supposed to be. IFSSC Project. Therefore right now, I'll be a full-time team member of IFSSC Project in which will took 3 years until the system go live.

I can't say much about the project yet. As far as I concerned, it'll include much of my knowledge and experience in Project Management (in which I'm a Certified e-Business Professional in Project Management by name, in life? Haven't been assessed yet as the certificate that I owned was came from attending 1 month +++ course) and my finance and treasury knowledge (in which two of the papers that I hatred most back in my university). See how demanding it'll be? Gosh.

Doing things you dun like, is growing up.

Yeah I've grown up much. (and then why am I still shorter, and getting skinnier?) *sigh*

Audit? Finance? Treasury?

I'll never get a chance to experience Taxation, the area that i LOOOOOVE most.

Woop..one more thing!!

The department in where I am temporarily placed now (Group Treasury) before going to the IFSSC Project Office, the ppl here was just waaaaaaaaaaay too kind! They were really cooperative and explaining everything about IFSSC thing to me, without me asking for it. Ohhh~ that's verry thoughtful of them. The environment is totally contrary from where I came from.

*grinning*