definitly need a tonic.

i think i'd left so much things that happened last few days to b shared in this dear blog.

i'd lost myself till i turned on my assassin mode last week. killing time. *grr..grr*. i left alone during weekdays which i presumed was not frightening at all till elli asked me.. "ko ta takut ke dok umah sorg2??" hah?? what tha. .elli was totally remind me of my loneliness..jobless..n penniless?? *yelah..kalu ade duit da lame ku jln2 ronda2 lawat membe2 ke..kan?kan?kan?:P*

last week was pretty much homey. i mean i rili am being at home. no outing. from as early as 10am till my mom back from school, around 5pm. actually, we were having a reconstruction to our kolam ikan n some small backyard area, near to the wet kitchen. which i feel it was not pleasant at all! *dlm rumah pon kena pakai tudung tao! ces sunggoh!* the reconstructg is done yesterday.

the result was...emm...considering that i'm not an art person like Pablo Picasso...which i think my opinion wont b much counted, least as a person, as a meticulous woman which i very much appreciate a shipshape n serene surrounding..i dun like it at all!! *sori mom n dad..i was being straightforward* tp when i asked my mom whether she's satisfied with the outcome..she said "tak cantik...tak kemas...pastu abis lantai2 mak ni jd teruk trkene simen2 diorg...cuci pon da ta cantik...haihh sabarje lah.." wah wah sep! sep! gimme 5 mak! :D mmg ta cantik...then my dad plak ckp.." kalau cemtu..byr je diorg...pastu ckp, sy takkan pggil kamu buat keje dgn kami lg " wah ayah lg tensen..bkan sbb tensen ta cantik...tensen sbb byr RM2000++, tp hasilnye ; kalau bg kami anak-beranak dgn kreativiti afiq yg menang tmpt ketiga prtandingan mewarna..sure lg santep tau! huhh! shoh shoh jgn dtg lg~

ther'll be a real fuss if u try to messing around me. esp when it comes to my home. my famili. *baiti wa jannati* shoh shoh.

suddenly my Incek Fairus crossed my mind.

emmm :'(

i miss him.

i wish he was here.

ya..he was here..tantalizgly near..in my heart :'((

wallahua'lam.