So much in love.

i once (n in fact, more than once hehe) dreaming of me tying the knot with a prince charming. darn, what a reminiscence of my early childhood life haha :D ladies always desire for an unconditional love. a man whom had his own romantic way of indulging the lady he loved, whom strong and protective, whom willing to do anything beyond possibilities to please the lady. and so am i :))

in any love relationship, ther's no such smooth and even path to happiness. we always got into bumped roads and demanding our faithfulness and devotion. right? it's happened to me too. all the time. everytime we had a dispute, it's always me whom caused the issue. i always feel unsatisfied, easily get hurt by any issues. and i would say anything to hurt his feeling. despite so many things he had done..what is wrong with me? i was so mean, wasnt i? :( and then, i'll feel so regret. like an innocent lil girl crying, asking for her mother forgiveness for taken RM1 from mom's wallet without permission to buy a paper doll. remorseful. how cud i hurt him? the man who loved me with all of his heart, accepting me the way i am? huh..how silly-insane girlfriend i am to him.:(

i am so fortunate, and even cant praise enof to Allah s.w.t..after countless bumped roads that got into me and him, he still stick to me being my other half, spoiling me and eager to be my future husband.

he once said, "it doesnt matter how many times you try to hurt my feelings, coz i know you never mean it. i'll always love you to pieces, no matter what. please forgive me for ignoring your feelings. i wish i cud have an eyes on you 24-7. to make sure, u r alright. to hug you, whenever u feel bad. how i rili wish...."

...i'm weeping everytime i received that kind of text from him X'( he always apologized though he knew by himself, it was me whose arousing the issue.

i had found my Prince Charming.

He is.

my Mr Fairus.

wallahua'lam.